Bliss Diary – July 1, 2015

Let us be grateful to people who make us happy; they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom. — Marcel Prous

Intention/Affirmation: I honor all the dimensions of my essence. I celebrate all of my passions and interests.

morning delight
green goddess salad w/chicken
raw organic dark cacao while making dinner
super greeeen soup (bunch of greens lightly cooked w/ bone broth all blended up into a creamy nutrient dense deliciousness)

It was 2 pm, I was at the park and it was 90+ degrees and…I got a kombucha. Yes, I said I wasn’t going drink them anymore. The thing I learned…my willpower was low and I wasn’t prepared. How do I prepare better for tomorrow? I will make a lemonade in the morning so that I have a refreshing drink in the fridge if I feel the urge again. #letsdothis

* 20 minute toddler paced walk
* 5 minute rebounding
* 15 minute walk to the park + 15 minute walk home from the park
* 15 minute on a myofascial release ball

Meditation: 15 minutes + 20 minute guided meditation

3 minute Meditation/Prayer:

Mind/Heart/Spirit Goodness: I was feeling into my essence today…who I am and what lights me up. I laughed as I thought I’m like bio-hacker meets  divine priestess meets domestic goddess meets simple optimal living queen. I used to think those didn’t all go together. I had to pick one. I realized I don’t need to put myself in a box. There is no container that fits who I am. Different aspects of who I am express themselves at different times and on different days.

Reminds me of this quote by Walt Whitman:

Do I contradict myself? Very well, then I contradict myself, I am large, I contain multitudes.

Yes, I contain multitudes. I am practicing honoring all aspects of me. I do it the way I do it. I follow my passion and I share what I’m inspired to share. No comparison needed. We all rock our Goddess lives in our own flava! There is no right or wrong way. I’m gettin’ jiggy with my inner priestess + domestic goddess + biohacker + rockin’ optimal living queen.

Magical Mommy Moment: Today my son decided he wanted to go to the potty and wear underwear. I have drastically changed my approach to toilet training and I think of it more as toilet learning (got this from RIE).

When my son was born I was totally committed to doing Elimination Communication. I was ALL about it for the first 6 months of his life. I even interviewed Ingrid Bauer on her book: Diaper Free! Then, I found RIE and learned a different approach and it resonated with me a bit more than EC (especially in the modern world).

Now, I’m in the camp of trusting he will learn in his own timing. This is a big part of everything I do as a mother. Observing, Waiting, Reflecting, Trusting and Letting him learn and unfold at his own pace. It has been AMAZING!

Back to my mommy moment. He took off his diaper then peed in the potty and then, put his underwear and shorts back on all by himself. He did this over and over for about 30 minutes. Brian and I just observed and reflected what we saw him doing.

It made me smile for a few reasons. One, that I’ve given him the spaciousness and autonomy to learn things at his own pace. Two, to watch him so intentionally and gracefully learn everything he does. And, three, because he is becoming a little boy. It really is the simple things. I just sat in awe watching this sweet little person figure how how this whole potty process worked.  #simplejoys

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for our beautiful home. I am grateful we can walk to so many awesome parks/places. I am grateful for the abundance of nutrient dense foods in our fridge. I am grateful for coconut products. I am grateful for my functional doctor. I am grateful for RIE and all the books I’ve read on parenting. I am grateful for our midwife and all the midwives that support children being born naturally. Truly blessed.

Final thoughts for the day…I am so ready for bed. I’m off to listen to some Alison Armstrong with my hubby, shower, read and hopefully be in bed by 8 pm! #YES!


Bliss Diary – June 19, 2015

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” — Steve Jobs

warm lemon water w/pinch of sea salt
morning Delight Tea/Smoothie ish (coconut milk, mct, collagen protein, cacao butter/poweder/stevia, longevity tea)
handful of olives
big salad (the usual) except I added some primal mayo in the mashed goodness – #bestever – with/ some coconut wraps

*40 minute walk with my son around town. When he stopped to explore I did some yoga and stretching.

*20 minute light yoga

Affirmation/Intention: Turn up the volume of my inner voice and increase the courage to follow my heart and intuition even more.

Today I’m learning: I am researching about intestinal permeability (aka leaky gut). There are tests you can do to see if it’s something you’re working with but I haven’t done them yet. I do know that I’ve had a lot of the the leaky gut triggers over the years like: cesarean birth, gut dysobiosis, hormone imbalance, chronic antibiotic use or NSAID, stress, sugar, sleep deprivation (especially as a new mama).

I had strep throat almost every year when I was a kid and took tons of antibiotics. When I was 17 I had my tonsils and adenoids removed. Sweet, something is inflamed, let’s just cut it out. Then, I went on to college and played Div I volleyball and was stressed and ate a diet full of junk/processed foods and completely addicted to sugar. And, I played for 3 years with a stress fracture in my foot and took 4-8 advils before most games. Hello, recipe for ripping holes in the gut. Sad face. Then, there is motherhood…a whole different level of stress and fatigue and my son didn’t sleep through the night until he was almost 2.

So…there is no doubt I’ve had intestinal permeability for a lot of my life. I’ve done a lot of nutritional healing over the years but I am feeling inspired to look deeper into what it takes to truly heal the gut.Which leads me too…

Mind/Heart Goodness: There have been people that have said/thought that I’ve been a bit too intense and strict with my nutrition over the years. Or they think that it has been super easy for me to eat healthfully. It hasn’t been so called easy. I have had ups and downs and had to learn how to cook and have spent  thousands of hours researching and studying and it’s been a HUGE learning curve. 

The more research I do the more grateful I am that I’ve been so vigilant in this area of my life. I wasn’t born with a super strong immune system. When you are born c-section your gut isn’t healed properly which can lead to a lifetime of issues unless you heal it. I am stoked I haven’t ignored my symptoms and that I am so committed to not letting “other’s opinions drown out my own inner voice.”

I usually feel excited about my discoveries with nutrition/health and also a twinge of sadness that so many go through health challenges that can so easily be prevented. I can (sometimes) wish that things were different in my life and that I knew better back then. But, I didn’t. It’s all part of the process. Now, I feel grateful that a big part of my work is  to help others along the path as I continue to learn.

Gratitude + Appreciation: I am grateful for all the people who are researching how we can heal our bodies from nutrition to spirituality. I wouldn’t be where I am without so many people choosing to listen to their inner voice and knowing there was a better way. I am grateful for the sweet day I had with my son. Today was our last RIE class. It was bitter sweet. I am a better Mama Goddess because of the last 2 1/2 years of our weekly class. I was so filled with gratitude today as we walked out of class. Tears in my eyes. It was another reminder that things change. My son is growing into a little boy. I am so grateful that I’ve invested the time in our relationship so that it can be as joyful as it is. I love him more every day. ❤


Bliss Diary – June 16, 2015

Do less, observe more, enjoy most. — Magda Gerber

My mornings routine (most days):
I co-sleep with my son and he usually wakes me up around 5:30-5:45 am. We nurse and cuddle until about 6 am. Then, E will yell, “Daaadddy!” And, Brian will yell back, “Buudddy.” B stops working and comes down and we have a short little family time. Then, he goes back to work and E and I will go in the kitchen and get breakfast ready.

We enjoy breakfast and play and go outside to see the sun for a little bit and sometimes go for a walk. I usually do some sort of cleaning up during this time. Brian comes down around 8 ish and he will be with E for 45-60 minutes while I get my workout, meditation and sometimes write/create. If the kitchen needs some extra love the boys like to help with this (except they didn’t today hehe). I love a clean kitchen, especially when I don’t have to do it. 🙂

*morning delight (aka fat) tea
*clean gut shake w/coconut milk/ground flax/chia seed
*16 oz green juice
*my go to salad – 1 avocado, 1 head of romaine, dulse, nori, lemon, coconut aminos and mashed together with some raw wraps + baked chicken

* 20 minutes of Goddess dance
* 5 minute rebounding
* 15 min rebounding (watching my interview about cycle syncing. good refresher)

Affirmation/Intention: I choose to give the gift of presence to myself and others today.

Body Goodness: I am honoring my cycle today. 🙂

Meditation: 20 minute meditation during an acupuncture treatment. Ah!

Mama Lesson:
I love RIE (Resources for Infant Educarers). I heard about it when my son was about 4 months old and that week I  read Your Self-Confident Baby + Dear Parent: Caring for Infants with Respect by Magda Gerber. We started a weekly class when he was 5 1/2 months. My son will be 3 at the end of September and we’ve only missed a handful of classes. It has been transformative to say the least. I am so grateful for Liz, our RIE instructor. I value this work so much that I went to a RIE conference and their training program.

I believe RIE can help parenting become a spiritual practice by cultivating mindfulness. My intention is to follow the Principles to the best of my ability. My main focus these days is to observe more, do less, enjoy most. I’ve found that I enjoy parenting the most when I am giving presence.

There are many times during the day where I shift my attention from one thing to the next. My days aren’t created in a linear fashion with a toddler. I’ve found that it’s a constant flow…a dance. I do consciously create and delight in those periods of time I stop doing/thinking and just rest and enjoy my child. No phone. Breathing. Watching him play. Loving him. Giving him my full attention. This is a gift for both of us. I notice I am happier when I carve out time in our days to practice and be. As Magda said: “Unbusy your body. Unbusy your mind.”

When I observe and reflect what my child is doing/telling me I learn about who he truly is. When I don’t interfere with his play he has freedom to explore. It’s amazing what he can do on his own if I patiently wait. Sometimes I even silently say: “Wait…Wait” to give him space to figure out/experience whatever he’s experiencing without my interpretations and stories. It’s incredible to watch his confidence and trust in himself grows every time I do this. Thank you, RIE!

Gratitude + Appreciation:
I am sooooo grateful for our pediatrician, Jay Gordon! I talked with him today because I needed help interpreting the stool test I had done for E. His guidance, wisdom and confidence was so awesome and appreciated!!

One of the many reasons I chose him for our doctor was because he is a major advocate for breastfeeding, co-sleeping and supports no vaccinations. I know a hot topic today but one I feel passionate about. Last week he testified against the SB277 bill that will require all children that attend California schools to be vaccinated. I am so grateful for his passion, purpose and commitment to living his values! A beautiful reminder to stand powerfully for what we believe.

I am so blessed!! Good night! 🙂