Offline Retreat (Momma style)

Hello Lovelies:

I will be offline from December 19th until January 4th. I will complete the year with stillness, calm and restoration. I am intending to reset my body and mind and gain more clarity on my biggest intentions for 2016. I have lots of fun plans but wanting to “be” with them more and go deeper in order to feel what resonates the most on a soul level.

During the next 2 weeks I plan to go at an even slower pace, sleep more, be more mindful, do less reading and writing and more meditating and resting. I’m still following my Brain & Body Optimization Game too. My sole intention is to care for my family and rejuvenate as much as possible. A Momma style staycation. 🙂

I share more about why I’ve chosen to do this in the video below:

Here are the resources that I talked about in the video:

  • Vipassana meditation – 10 day silent meditation. No talking, no writing, no reading. You meditate for 10 hours a day, sleep, walk and eat. That’s it. It’s intense and amazing! I am going to do a super modified version of this. 😉
  • Let’s talk about mold post– I share about how the mold impacted my brain and what I’ve learned.
  • Amen Clinics – We did a brain scan + QEEG with Daniel Amen and he saw some ways I could optimize and heal my brain even more. Love his work!
  • Neurofeedback– I am doing this to help balance out my left and right hemispheres. The QEEG actually showed that my brain is doing pretty well with one spot on the right hemisphere that needs a little bit more love.
  • EMDR therapy – This helps people “heal from the symptoms and emotional distress that are the result of disturbing life experiences”. Daniel Amen noticed some subtle things on my brain scan that could have been from emotional upset. He recommended I do it, so I am doing some sessions.

Alrighty…I am off! Kinda nervous (hehe). But, I also know it’s going to be awesome! 🙂

Happy Holidays and sending big love,

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The magic & bigness in the simple things

For each new morning with its light,
For rest and shelter of the night,
For health and food, for love and friends,
For everything Thy goodness sends.
— Ralph Waldo Emerson

I am becoming a lover of simple things. This is new within the last 5+ years, and more so since becoming a mother. I used to be pretty driven, always focusing on the future, dreaming bigger and higher and wanting to be and do more. I still have those desires but they aren’t at the forefront as much. Simplicity is.

I’ve experienced again and again it’s the little things that give me true joy. They aren’t usually about money, recognition,  status or numbers of any kind. If I can stop long enough to breathe and settle into the moment there is so much wonder and delight…a richness that is hard to describe. These pauses help slow down the racing mind that can be consumed with time and getting it all done and a tendency to rush from one thing to the next.

The practice is to unbusy my mind and fully engaged in sensory awareness. This bestows so much more daily grace. These pauses of celebration inspire an unhurried life. I like this. To truly acknowledge the power of the moment. The abundance of the sun shining on my face as a new day begins, seeing my child laugh, having the freedom and resources to make healthy meals, taking leisurely walks playing and exploring, listening to a heart felt song, connecting with my family, being present to my life and all the magic that is unfolding. The bigness in the simple things is my central  focus these days.

This can’t be captured on facebook or twitter or in a bank account, for this is a visceral experience captured in our hearts and bodies in a very tangible way. It’s a way of inhabiting our lives, realizing there is no “getting there”, “arriving”, or “having it all figured out”. This. Is. It. Our life journey…in all it’s colors, dimensions, textures and flavors. It’s the collection of simple things that come together to weave our precious individual stories.

We must limit the noise in our heads and our lives and be willing to slow down enough so that we can actually embrace these moments. Otherwise we miss them. The simple magical moments require attention, presence and recognition. When you feel one. Stop. Smile. Feel it in your body. Listen to the vibration of life happening all around you. Rest and delight in that particular snapshot of time.

I believe the deep breaths, the sun, the water, tuning into my senses, the wonder around me and the little moments of joy can lighten and soften the occasional feelings of overwhelm and overload. Trusting that our life is unfolding with divine perfection. Resting in that place.

Resting our minds and our bodies even while we get things done. There can be a peace, a flow even in the midst of the mess. Life is messy. There will always be toys and dishes to clean up, and things to get done. As long as we are breathing there will be details that need tending.

The listening and resting helps. It’s where we hear the call for expansion…the call for a deeper authentic life. The simplicity gently guides us with grace, love, and enthusiasm. How can we dance with the big and the small with utmost respect and importance? Boldly saying yes to it all! Yes to our lives!

Last night as we transitioned from dinner to bedtime rituals I paused looking at the kitchen before turning off the light.  My husband had graciously done the dishes. There were a few things that weren’t cleaned up. A few glasses, supplement bottles, and some dishes drying next to the sink. With the eyes of perfection I would’ve wished that it was cleaner. With the eyes of beauty I saw life. I saw our lives.

These little things we do every day make up our lives. They are yes, just glasses/dishes/bottles on the counter, but they were used by people I love. I smiled and thought yes, this is my life. It’s not sterile and perfect, but it’s mine.

There is magic in our day to day lives. The simplicity of most of our days sculpt our life stories. These divine tasks mold our character. The miracles may not seem big but they are, for if we only feel deeper we will see the love. We get to choose how we will weave our myth. Why not choose one of magic and miracles right where we stand?

There may be thoughts that it’s not enough. We can look at what is happening in the world and think we must do more and be more. But, as Byron Katie advised in a workshop I attended a few months ago: we must save ourselves first. This is how we change the world. Be the change we want to see. What world do we want to live in and create? It starts with us.

Even if we think our little space in the universe can’t really change the world. It can and it is. Because our choices are changing us, changing our families and therefore our communities and world. Our presence impacts the world. We must start where we are and let spirit/god/life move through us it guides us to our next adventure. It’s that simple. Today I honor the magic and bigness in the simple things. This is what’s calling me. What’s calling you?

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Bliss Diary – July 23, 2015

There’s nothing wrong with us. There’s nothing missing in us. Everything is for us and there is nothing against us. Let us remember this together. — Michael Beckwith

Intention/Affirmation: Glow with gratitude ❤

Nutrition:
7:15 morning delight
10:45 4 muffins – same as yesterday
2:00 few slices of watermelon
5:30 big goddess green salad

I didn’t feeling super hungry and was slightly nauseous later in the day. I did an afternoon workout and felt much better.

Movement:
20 minute strength workout + 5 minutes of stretching.
15 minutes of yin yoga before bed

Meditation: 15 minutes + 45 minute napitation

Sleep: 8 hours and 20 minutes. Bed by 9:20 and up at 5:40.

Body Goodness: When I originally looked at my thyroid results I thought I was golden because my thyroid antibodies weren’t in the red (nothing was in the red). But, then checking in with my Doc he said yes, you do have Hashimoto’s. My antibodies were on the lower side — Anti-Thyroglobulin Antibody was 32 and Anti-Thyroid Peroxidase Antibody was 14. I’ve seen some people with 600-1200 on these. I guess if you have any antibodies that can mean you have Hashimoto’s. I think I’ve slowly been healing in many ways because I’ve been gluten free/dairy free (except some ghee) for almost 9 years while eating an organic whole foods diet with no processed foods. Now I can get laser focused on the next part of the journey. Exciting! 🙂

There are a few things I need to take out in order to do the full Autoimmune Protocol. I’ve gone through spurts of taking each one of these out but not all at the same time:  Eggs, seeds like chia/flax/sunflower/hemp, cacao, stevia, ghee, lentils, some nightshades. I feel like knowing what I am working with now gives me more focus.

I’ve been wondering how many animal products I should eat and if I really needed them (letting go of the belief I’ve had for 9 years that animal products are toxic). But, everything I’ve read and researched has lead me to believe I do need them to heal.

And, I also wonder if aspects of my veganism diet may have contributed to micronutrient deficiency, inflammation and irritated an already leaky gut. Dr. Terry Wahls wrote a great article, Could Vegetarianism increase your risk of autoimmune disease? It’s about being a vegetarian for 15 years and how she completely changed her diet and psychology around eating animal products. This has removed some of my ambivalence about eating meat and I’ve gotta go all in and believe this path is the best one for me, especially working with an autoimmune condition.

Mind/Heart/Spirit Goodness: In my meditation this morning I visualized the blue-butterfly-on-pink-hydrangea-garry-gaythyroid, it looks like a butterfly. A butterfly symbolizes transformation for me. That is why I have a butterfly in the Rock Your Goddess Life logo. I smiled because this is and has been my path: self-expression, creativity, love, transformation. My thyroid and immune system are helping me to live my destiny. It’s not how I thought it “should” look but this is how it’s unfolding. To quote Byron Katie: “Life is simple. Everything happens for you, not to you. Everything happens at exactly the right moment, neither too soon nor too late. You don’t have to like it… it’s just easier if you do.”

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for another lovely day. I am grateful for my gratitude practice. I am grateful for the spaciousness in my life. I am grateful for meditation. I am grateful for all the books, websites and stories people share on how they’ve healed themselves. I am grateful for family. I am grateful for my menstrual cycle. I am grateful for all the simple joys and laughs I experience daily. I am grateful for naps and rest. I am grateful for all the love that surrounds me. ❤

Final thoughts for the day…I started my moon yesterday and in order to honor my cycles I’m going to rest and be offline and shut down my computer until Monday. I will integrate and prepare to start the AIP protocol on Sunday. This weekend I will also focus on the things I’ve written about in the last few posts in regards to healing on the mental/emotional/spiritual level.

Thank you for reading. I am sending you love and appreciation! ❤

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Bliss Diary – July 19, 2015

Rest is not idleness, and to lie sometimes on the grass under trees on a summer’s day, listening to the murmur of the water, or watching the clouds float across the sky, is by no means a waste of time. – John Lubbock

Intention: Have a restorative and restful day and get a better idea of what I want to complete for the declutter challenge starting tomorrow.

Nutrition:
10:00 4 muffins with coconut butter (yes, the same ones I keep making new ones.)
2:30 goddess green salad w/romaine/arugula/dulse/avocado/hemp seeds/coconut aminos/lemon with fresh salmon fillet
5:30 16 oz green juice
6:15 cucumbers + lentil dip +chicken + ginger kombucha

I don’t want to have kombucha every day but I like it as a treat every once in awhile. I have taken so many things out of my diet that it feels nice to have a little treat once in awhile.

Movement:
* 23 minute track workout with sprints and stairs (Heart rate definitely got up there)

Meditation: 15 minutes + 35 napitation

Sleep: In bed at 8:30 and then woke up at 4 with the little guy and went back to sleep around 5 ish to 5:30. (~8 hours)

Body Goodness: I am feeling different than I normally do this close to my menstrual cycle. I am on day 26 and usually by now I feel a heaviness in mind and body and a subtle change in my skin tone. I’m not experiencing these so far. I’ve never had cramps or anything major physical issues during this time but it has slightly impacted my daily experience/enjoyment of life. I am really jazzed because I think this is a step in the right direction to hormone optimization. Whohoo!

I am still eating more than I normally would and still wonder about my old way of detoxing. I sometimes just want to go back to the way I was doing it before with the eating less and juicing more…but from everything I’ve researched on what I am specifically working I don’t think that’s going to be a good long-term healing strategy. So, I am going to keep following this path and trusting that I am doing the right thing for my body. I will keep experimenting and testing. I am also thinking about doing a full month of our whole family on the Autoimmune Protocol (AIP) with a GAPS twist. None of us have major issues but I think it could up our whole families well-being and gut health.

Mind/Heart/Spirit Goodness: I am feeling a lot of gratitude. Gratitude for all areas of my life. It was a really sweet and restful family day. I love that we enjoy just being together. We don’t even have a TV so we just hang and talk, play outside, walk, and read and eat. It’s super simple but super nourishing. I was delighting in the simplicity of our life today. We are very routine and systematic about a lot of things. Some may think it’s boring but it currently works for us. I’ve had lots of years of traveling and fun adventures and now this phase of my life feels like it’s a rooting, grounding and celebrating the mundane time.

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for another day of rain. So beautiful. I am grateful for our family track workout this morning. So much fun. I am grateful for Whole Foods. I love that place. I am grateful we can create the pace of our days. I am grateful for Brian and his ninja cleaning abilities. I love how he helps me win at keeping the kitchen clean. I am grateful for our family day. #thankyou

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