Bliss Diary – July 23, 2015

There’s nothing wrong with us. There’s nothing missing in us. Everything is for us and there is nothing against us. Let us remember this together. — Michael Beckwith

Intention/Affirmation: Glow with gratitude ❤

Nutrition:
7:15 morning delight
10:45 4 muffins – same as yesterday
2:00 few slices of watermelon
5:30 big goddess green salad

I didn’t feeling super hungry and was slightly nauseous later in the day. I did an afternoon workout and felt much better.

Movement:
20 minute strength workout + 5 minutes of stretching.
15 minutes of yin yoga before bed

Meditation: 15 minutes + 45 minute napitation

Sleep: 8 hours and 20 minutes. Bed by 9:20 and up at 5:40.

Body Goodness: When I originally looked at my thyroid results I thought I was golden because my thyroid antibodies weren’t in the red (nothing was in the red). But, then checking in with my Doc he said yes, you do have Hashimoto’s. My antibodies were on the lower side — Anti-Thyroglobulin Antibody was 32 and Anti-Thyroid Peroxidase Antibody was 14. I’ve seen some people with 600-1200 on these. I guess if you have any antibodies that can mean you have Hashimoto’s. I think I’ve slowly been healing in many ways because I’ve been gluten free/dairy free (except some ghee) for almost 9 years while eating an organic whole foods diet with no processed foods. Now I can get laser focused on the next part of the journey. Exciting! 🙂

There are a few things I need to take out in order to do the full Autoimmune Protocol. I’ve gone through spurts of taking each one of these out but not all at the same time:  Eggs, seeds like chia/flax/sunflower/hemp, cacao, stevia, ghee, lentils, some nightshades. I feel like knowing what I am working with now gives me more focus.

I’ve been wondering how many animal products I should eat and if I really needed them (letting go of the belief I’ve had for 9 years that animal products are toxic). But, everything I’ve read and researched has lead me to believe I do need them to heal.

And, I also wonder if aspects of my veganism diet may have contributed to micronutrient deficiency, inflammation and irritated an already leaky gut. Dr. Terry Wahls wrote a great article, Could Vegetarianism increase your risk of autoimmune disease? It’s about being a vegetarian for 15 years and how she completely changed her diet and psychology around eating animal products. This has removed some of my ambivalence about eating meat and I’ve gotta go all in and believe this path is the best one for me, especially working with an autoimmune condition.

Mind/Heart/Spirit Goodness: In my meditation this morning I visualized the blue-butterfly-on-pink-hydrangea-garry-gaythyroid, it looks like a butterfly. A butterfly symbolizes transformation for me. That is why I have a butterfly in the Rock Your Goddess Life logo. I smiled because this is and has been my path: self-expression, creativity, love, transformation. My thyroid and immune system are helping me to live my destiny. It’s not how I thought it “should” look but this is how it’s unfolding. To quote Byron Katie: “Life is simple. Everything happens for you, not to you. Everything happens at exactly the right moment, neither too soon nor too late. You don’t have to like it… it’s just easier if you do.”

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for another lovely day. I am grateful for my gratitude practice. I am grateful for the spaciousness in my life. I am grateful for meditation. I am grateful for all the books, websites and stories people share on how they’ve healed themselves. I am grateful for family. I am grateful for my menstrual cycle. I am grateful for all the simple joys and laughs I experience daily. I am grateful for naps and rest. I am grateful for all the love that surrounds me. ❤

Final thoughts for the day…I started my moon yesterday and in order to honor my cycles I’m going to rest and be offline and shut down my computer until Monday. I will integrate and prepare to start the AIP protocol on Sunday. This weekend I will also focus on the things I’ve written about in the last few posts in regards to healing on the mental/emotional/spiritual level.

Thank you for reading. I am sending you love and appreciation! ❤

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Bliss Diary – July 22, 2015

Physicians need to be good technicians and know how to prescribe, but for healing to occur they also need to incorporate philosophy and spirituality into their treatment. We need to feel as well as think.
Bernie Siegel
It’s estimated that 90 percent of people who have low thyroid function do, in fact, have Hashimoto’s. One in twelve Americans have an autoimmune condition, making it more prevalent than heart disease and cancer. There are 50 million Americans that have at least one autoimmune disease and these are just the ones that have been diagnosed.

According to Sarah Ballantyne: An autoimmune disease can be challenging to diagnose because it often presents as a collection of vague symptoms (such as fatigue, headaches, and muscle and joint aches). Too often these symptoms are dismissed as signs of getting insufficient sleep, working too hard, stress, being over- or underweight, or age. Some don’t even realize that psoriasis, endometriosis, rheumatoid arthritis, type 1 diabetes, lyme disease, alopecia, etc. are all autoimmune diseases.

As I gain clarity on the nature of an autoimmune disease and the nutritional healing protocol, I also ask: What is this teaching me? How can I grow from this?

As I discover the next steps to healing my physical body I’m also looking at mental, emotional, and spiritual healing. Healing our bodies is a spiritual practice. It is all connected. Body, mind, spirit. It’s a call to be greater expressions of our divine essence. Can we experience more love, gratitude and freedom no matter what?

The thyroid is located in the 5th chakra (I really like Caroline Myss’s Chakra Model.) I was curious about the mental/spiritual aspect of this so I looked up thyroid gland disorders in the book Your Body is Telling You: Love Yourself!

These are a few passages that resonated:

The thyroid gland links the physical body to the throat chakra. This chakra is linked to the will, the ability to make decisions based upon needs and, therefore, creating a lifestyle true to those needs…This center of energy is also directly linked with the sacral chakra (associated with creativity located in the genitals area).

It is said the throat chakra is the chakra of abundance. Why? Because by listening to the voice of your true needs, you honor your I AM, and from this point of balance and harmony, there can only be abundance on all levels: happiness, health and prosperity.

Let go of the detrimental belief that you are unable to engineer your own life and must not make any requests. It’s time you acknowledge your right to a full and satisfying life. If you had trouble asking for anything as a child, it’s time to change. You now need only answer to yourself.

It’s possible that you also need to go through a process of forgiveness concerning those who made you feel insecure about achieving your goals. They may have led you to believe you weren’t capable or that your dreams were unreachable. Understand that these people were in your life to teach you a lesson about overcoming fear, to strengthen your resolve and actually fuel your determination to create.

Questions to ask for anything going on in your body:

  1. Physical Block: What are the words that best describe what I am experiencing inside or on my body and how do I feel about it?
  2. Emotional Block: What is this illness preventing me from doing and/or having?
  3. Mental Block: If I allowed myself to be _________ (fill in the blank with the answer from the previous question) what unpleasant situation could happen to me AND what would people think of me (or what would I think of myself)?

This exercise is helpful in seeing what some of our limiting beliefs are and then question them and dig deeper to see who and what we truly want.

Intention/Affirmation: Love + Peace + Transformation ❤

Nutrition:
morning delight
carrot/sweet potato/ginger/carrot/eggs muffins
salmon and stir fry kale w/ coconut oil/sea salt + 5 olives
I wasn’t very hungry today.

Movement:
* 15 minute walk
* 15 minute rebounding

Meditation: 15 minutes + 30 minute napitation

Sleep: 8.5 hours – Bed at 9:00 pm and woke up at 5:30. Slept so well!!

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for books and all the amazing resources and research available. I am grateful for my Mom. I am grateful for for all the work I’ve done to lead me to the place I am now. It’s funny that a diagnoses elevates me to see I’m at a tipping point with my health and my life. It’s all coming together. I am grateful for my desires. I am grateful for my sweet thyroid and throat chakra. I am grateful for my Spirit. I am grateful for the lifeforce that is everywhere and running through my body right now. I am grateful for it all. I see the good in it all. #thankyou

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Bliss Diary – July 21, 2015

I found out I have Hashimoto’s last night. I recently got the results of a thyroid panel I did two weeks ago. This was the first time we tested for antibodies. My TSH was down so I was jazzed about that but later learned the antibody numbers confirmed Hashimoto’s. I knew that was a possibility but I was pretty sure I didn’t have an autoimmune disease. I’ve never had any “serious” symptoms some people deal with. My main symptoms are fatigue, some dry patches on my scalp, slight fluctuations with weight, and acne (altho, that has changed drastically since I’ve taken out grains and limited higher glycemic foods).

I am feeling a bit shocked with moments of denial along with a sense of relief. After I put my son to bed I sat on the couch and cried. I cried because Whaaaat? I have an autoimmune disease? And, I also cried because I finally knew what has been going on for the last probably 15+ years. I have been tired for awhile.

I remember the fatigue in college. Some days I would take caffeine pills before volleyball practice just to get moving. I’ve had skin issues since then too. I’m an athlete…strong with a disciplined mind and a high pain tolerance. I played Div I college volleyball with a stress fracture in my foot for 3 years. I felt better doing certain things nutrition/health wise but there was still a level of fatigue and skin issues that persisted.

Last night the tears just kept flowing from my eyes as I was trying to go to bed. I knew (for a long time) that something was off in my body. I’ve diligently focused on healing my body for 18 years. I got certified as a massage therapist, private trainer and holistic nutrition coach to learn more about the body & health.

My lifestyle is so dialed in now because I’ve made big and small leaps moving away from a SAD (Standard American Diet) to an organic whole foods diet (no grains, no vegetable oils, no processed foods/sugar). I feel like my thyroid has been the missing piece. This has been under the radar and limiting my full healing and optimization. My body has had to work with a lot of things throughout the years.

Snap shot of my health history: born c-section, strep throat and antibiotics every year, adenoids/tonsils removed, pushing my body *really* hard in college, taking advil for pain relief from the stress fracture. etc. Most autoimmune diseases are caused by intestinal permeability (leaky gut), genetic disposition and nutrition/lifestyle triggers.

There is no doubt that I’ve had a compromised gut/immune system for a long time. It probably started the first few weeks of my life because c-section babies gut lining usually doesn’t seal properly because they didn’t get the healthy vaginal bacteria that helps with this process. This can cause all sorts of inflammation problems which is most likely one of the reasons I was hospitalized for 2 seizures when I was a toddler. My sweet little baby body.

So now what? Well, serendipitously I was already thinking (and have been for awhile) to have our whole family do the AIP diet. We will just need to make a few tweaks and we’ll be golden. I already have a lot of books on autoimmune diseases. Before I was reading them because I’m passionate about optimal nutrition and now I am reading them with a new fervor.

I’m obviously still integrating this but my goal is to have my blood tests show that  Hashimoto’s is in remission. I will do this with diet and lifestyle and continue to do tests until the numbers prove that what I am doing is working. I also know that this new data is only going to make me and my family so much healthier. There is a new fire, a new commitment that feels powerful and I feel so grateful that I have the knowledge and support to rock this! 🙂

Nutrition:
morning delight
green juice
salmon and coconut chips
strawberries and watermelon
3 scrambled eggs with steamed broccoli and olive oil

Movement:
* 20 minute walk pushing the stroller
* 45 minute family walk

Meditation: 15 minutes + 50 minute napitation

Sleep: 5.5 hours. Bed at 9:15 but couldn’t sleep so I read for a bit and fell asleep around 10:45 and then woke up at 2:45 wide awake and fell back asleep from 4-5:30.

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for my commitment to learning and studying and finding ways to heal myself. My curiosity and passion for learning and growing is why I’ve gotten to the root of my health challenges. I’ve been moved to tears today with an overwhelming amount of gratitude and appreciation for so many people. I am grateful for my amazing naturopath doctor who’s made this his life’s work. I am grateful for my awesome acupuncturist and my local functional doctor. I also have a new level of compassion and gratitude for myself and my body. I have been doing an amazing job throughout the years. I am grateful for all the hard work I’ve already invested. I am grateful for all the pioneers in the autoimmunity community, especially Sarah Ballantyne, Terry Wahls, and Amy Myers. I am grateful for my husband, he has supported all my health adventures, tests, questions, and intuition. Lastly, my son…I am beyond grateful for my son. His presence in my life continuously inspires me to rise up and be the woman I am. I go to bed with a bunch of questions and an abundance of appreciation. #thankyou

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