The magic & bigness in the simple things

For each new morning with its light,
For rest and shelter of the night,
For health and food, for love and friends,
For everything Thy goodness sends.
— Ralph Waldo Emerson

I am becoming a lover of simple things. This is new within the last 5+ years, and more so since becoming a mother. I used to be pretty driven, always focusing on the future, dreaming bigger and higher and wanting to be and do more. I still have those desires but they aren’t at the forefront as much. Simplicity is.

I’ve experienced again and again it’s the little things that give me true joy. They aren’t usually about money, recognition,  status or numbers of any kind. If I can stop long enough to breathe and settle into the moment there is so much wonder and delight…a richness that is hard to describe. These pauses help slow down the racing mind that can be consumed with time and getting it all done and a tendency to rush from one thing to the next.

The practice is to unbusy my mind and fully engaged in sensory awareness. This bestows so much more daily grace. These pauses of celebration inspire an unhurried life. I like this. To truly acknowledge the power of the moment. The abundance of the sun shining on my face as a new day begins, seeing my child laugh, having the freedom and resources to make healthy meals, taking leisurely walks playing and exploring, listening to a heart felt song, connecting with my family, being present to my life and all the magic that is unfolding. The bigness in the simple things is my central  focus these days.

This can’t be captured on facebook or twitter or in a bank account, for this is a visceral experience captured in our hearts and bodies in a very tangible way. It’s a way of inhabiting our lives, realizing there is no “getting there”, “arriving”, or “having it all figured out”. This. Is. It. Our life journey…in all it’s colors, dimensions, textures and flavors. It’s the collection of simple things that come together to weave our precious individual stories.

We must limit the noise in our heads and our lives and be willing to slow down enough so that we can actually embrace these moments. Otherwise we miss them. The simple magical moments require attention, presence and recognition. When you feel one. Stop. Smile. Feel it in your body. Listen to the vibration of life happening all around you. Rest and delight in that particular snapshot of time.

I believe the deep breaths, the sun, the water, tuning into my senses, the wonder around me and the little moments of joy can lighten and soften the occasional feelings of overwhelm and overload. Trusting that our life is unfolding with divine perfection. Resting in that place.

Resting our minds and our bodies even while we get things done. There can be a peace, a flow even in the midst of the mess. Life is messy. There will always be toys and dishes to clean up, and things to get done. As long as we are breathing there will be details that need tending.

The listening and resting helps. It’s where we hear the call for expansion…the call for a deeper authentic life. The simplicity gently guides us with grace, love, and enthusiasm. How can we dance with the big and the small with utmost respect and importance? Boldly saying yes to it all! Yes to our lives!

Last night as we transitioned from dinner to bedtime rituals I paused looking at the kitchen before turning off the light.  My husband had graciously done the dishes. There were a few things that weren’t cleaned up. A few glasses, supplement bottles, and some dishes drying next to the sink. With the eyes of perfection I would’ve wished that it was cleaner. With the eyes of beauty I saw life. I saw our lives.

These little things we do every day make up our lives. They are yes, just glasses/dishes/bottles on the counter, but they were used by people I love. I smiled and thought yes, this is my life. It’s not sterile and perfect, but it’s mine.

There is magic in our day to day lives. The simplicity of most of our days sculpt our life stories. These divine tasks mold our character. The miracles may not seem big but they are, for if we only feel deeper we will see the love. We get to choose how we will weave our myth. Why not choose one of magic and miracles right where we stand?

There may be thoughts that it’s not enough. We can look at what is happening in the world and think we must do more and be more. But, as Byron Katie advised in a workshop I attended a few months ago: we must save ourselves first. This is how we change the world. Be the change we want to see. What world do we want to live in and create? It starts with us.

Even if we think our little space in the universe can’t really change the world. It can and it is. Because our choices are changing us, changing our families and therefore our communities and world. Our presence impacts the world. We must start where we are and let spirit/god/life move through us it guides us to our next adventure. It’s that simple. Today I honor the magic and bigness in the simple things. This is what’s calling me. What’s calling you?

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Daily Bliss – November 9, 2015

Don’t ask yourself what the world needs; ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.  Howard Thurman

Affirmation: I feel enthusiastic, energized, radiant, powerful, and joyful!

Nutrition:
* 7:30 bulletproof decaff coffee w/cacao powder/coconut milk/mct oil/stevia
* 10:00 power smoothie (homemade almond milk, steamed spinach, blueberries, maca, stevia leaf, collagen)
* 12:30 handful of plaintain chips (planned on a juice but the place was closed)
* 3:00 chicken dipped in primal kitchen mayo (love this stuff)
* 6:00 butternut squash soup with sauteed chard and ground beef topped with avocado + few bites of a persimmon

Movement: 5 minute walk at 6:15 w/ E to walk the doggie + 20 minute strength workout (pretty light but did get heart rate up) +10 minute walk + 10 minute walk + 10 minute family walk

Meditation: 20 minutes + 45 minute napitation and listened to this 4 minute Blissitation: Power Strength & Courage:


Book Love:
I recently finished these books:
The Loving Diet. This one’s about going beyond paleo into the heart of what ails you. I really loved it because it’s about choosing to love yourself and life no matter what your physical ailments are. Jessica, the author, focuses on the autoimmune protocol in her practice but she also brings a lovely heart centered approach to healing that I really dig.

Kale and Coffee. I’ve known about Kevin Gianni (The Renegade) for years. His book is all about his journey to finding health, happiness, and longevity. I enjoyed reading his story because I was pretty intense (like him) with the vegan (high raw) diet. I appreciated his honesty, courage and willingness to explore all avenues of health to see what works best for his body even when it challenged what he believed to be true.

Notes from a Blue Bike. It’s another memoir all about the the art of living intentionally in a chaotic world. Tsh is a wife and a mother to 3 kids. I love reading about how other mothers are creating their desired lives. It takes courage to create sacred boundaries in order to live the lives we most want. She’s a great writer and it was a fun to travel around the world through her eyes.

Body Goodness: I’ve been slowly getting off the bulletproof coffee. I liked the potential health and longevity theory but I didn’t notice any big benefits. And, I feel like a green smoothie/juice would probably be a better choice for me. Happy I tried it though.

Dr. Amen gave me some Serotonin Mood Support to help optimize my brain from what he saw on my brain scans mostly my limbic system being a bit overactive and signs of some trauma (from the last year with mold, our dog being killed and our best friend’s death). I think I notice a difference. I start my moon cycle in the next few days and I don’t feel the slight irritability + heightened emotional sensitivity that can come up for me at this time. Go serotonin boost! 🙂

Mind/Heart Goodness: I am inspired to simplify even more and to keep refining my essentials and rockin’ the simple habits that add the most power and joy to my daily life. I get *really* excited about a lot of habits and things I want to do and can tend to want to do them all (now!). 🙂

I’m bringing in my focus and only picking a few. This feels a bit challenging but I also know I will master more habits in the long run doing it this way. The question that is at the forefront of my mind is: What is most important now? What will have the greatest impact on my life today, next month, next year? What would it look/feel like if I did these habits every day? Simple wins and creating sustainable success!

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for the blue sky and clouds. They seem extraordinarily beautiful today as we walked and played outside. I am grateful for the abundance of yummy fruits and vegetables we have access to every week. I am grateful for books. Every day so much gratitude for books and the awesome people who wrote them! I am grateful for all the sweet little interactions we have with people around town. I am grateful for everyone who helped built the new park by our house. I am grateful for the Internet and all the amazing people I’ve met because of it, including my husband! I am grateful for the life and family we’ve created together.

Oh, and I won the day for my Brain & Body Optimization Game! Woot! Woot!

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Bliss Diary – October 26, 2015

To keep faith with life is to experience that everything — everything that comes to us, whatever it is — has it’s place in the puzzle of our existence. — Roger Housden

I am starting my Optimized Brain & Body Game today. The gist of the game is to win the day for the next 5 weeks. I do this by honoring the nutrition protocol and doing 5 energy generators, 1 adventure and avoiding 5 obstacles. #wootwoot

Affirmation: I’m on fire with life! It’s all good!

Nutrition:
* 7:30 cup of bulletproof decaff coffee with 2 tsp of mct oil + tsp of ghee
* 9:30 25 oz green juiceFullSizeRender
* 10:30 celeric soup w/ sauteed purple cabbage topped with olives + a slice of bacon
* 2:30 3 scrambled eggs + sweet potato fries + probably 2 oz of my son’s smoothie (1/2 green apple, 1/3 c of mango, 1 small cucumber, 1/4 avocado, 8 oz green juice = suuuuper good!)
* 5:30 ish 25 oz green juice + then around 6:30 had a little bit of ground beef and a pickleFullSizeRender-1

Body Goodness: Day 1 and I woke up with a little bit of a headache.;)  This almost never happens but it fueled my desire even more. I want to feel really good in my body. This is why I am playing this game. I got up and did my normal routine and committed to having a wonderful day and knew that once I drank a bunch of water and got moving it would go away. By 8:30 I felt awesome! I felt on my game and inspired for most of the day. I did notice a drop in energy and enthusiasm around 3:30 pm but knew that it would pass (helps to have a practice to not dive into stories too much).

Mind & Heart Goodness: I notice that one of my biggest complaints is lack of energy. This morning in my meditation I reminded myself that I am the one who gets to choose my energy. I can do a lot of things to generate more energy and power in my body that only take 1-5 minutes. Do something – anything-  to get into motion!

I am changing the habit of fatigue. I noticed how much I can believe the lack of energy story and the more I believe it the more it keeps me locked into feeling tired. I decided to consciously choose ENERGY today. No matter what. I choose vitality, health and joy!

Even when I felt my energy dip in the afternoon I knew I could do things to increase my mojo. I acknowledged the tiredness while also noticing that I could still find aspects of joy and energy even with a lower sense of vitality. I can use tiredness to my advantage. It can be a signal to slow down, breathe and be with it (not make myself wrong for feeling this way which is another habit I am working on;). I keep reminding myself to not believe everything I think, especially when I’m feeling tired. 🙂

Gratitude & Appreciation: I feel so blessed to be able to play this game. I feel grateful for the inspiration that is flowing through me. I am grateful for all the people that inspire me daily. I am grateful for green juice (love that stuff). I am grateful for my husband and son. Life is so much better with them. I am grateful for my freedom. I am grateful to be able to create my life the way I do. I am grateful for all that books I get to read. I am grateful for all the healthy and delicious food we have in our kitchen. I a grateful to have our kitchen put back together after the remediation. I am grateful for my passion and curiosity. I am grateful for all the sweet littler interactions with have with our local community every day. I am grateful for our beautiful home. I am grateful for my Mom and all of her support and love. I am grateful Fall is here. I love this time of year. 🙂

Energy Generators: I win one point for each one of these
15 minute meditation
20 minute rebounding
10 minute morning sun + grounding on some dirt in the backyard (2 points)
Green juice
5 minute self-massage (head and shoulders)
10 deep breaths
“I’ve got spirit cheer” — This was some loud whooohoooo’s + yeaaaaaahs with some cheerleading jumps (ridiculous, fun and energizing ;))
5 + 5 + 5 minute errand walk pushing stroller
35 minute napitation
1 song dance
Gratitude practice
Family Walk
Daily supplements
Bed at 9:15

14 points

Adventures: I win 3 points for each one of these.
1. Do the work (Byron Katie style) + Daniel Amen’s ANTS (Automatic Negative Thoughts) practice on something that is triggering me

3 points

Obstacles: 1 point for jumping over/avoiding these.
1. No kombucha
2. No sweeteners
3. No dairy
4. No legumes
5. No grains
6. No vegetable oils
7. Laziness (mostly in regards to not wanting to make food)
8. Stop negative self-talk and victim thinking (+ reframe)

8 Points

Today I won the day! #YES! Total Score: 25 points

Can I get a higher score tomorrow? 😉

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P.S. I am recording this every day and will post my diary on occasion. 🙂

Don’t rush the moments

What do we want? When we get still enough what are our true heart desires?

My son and husband are asleep, it’s 8:40 pm. Tears are streaming down my face as I sit in the silence meditating/contemplating and feeling into my life before I go to bed. I believe we all want to feel alive, like really alive Joseph Campbell style:

People say that what we’re all seeking is a meaning for life. I don’t think that’s what we’re really seeking. I think that what we’re seeking is an experience of being alive, so that our life experiences on the purely physical plane will have resonances with our innermost being and reality, so that we actually feel the rapture of being alive.

When I can touch the tenderness of this desire the tears steam so easily. This joyful aliveness is in the moments, in our connections, in the small acts of kindness. If we can slow down enough we can feel our innermost being vibrating with aliveness.

I sometimes notice as a culture we are looking for the big. If this BIG thing happens then everything will be OK. I will be OK. So…we strive and we look forward. We quickly move from one thing to the next so that we can hurry up and get there.

What if by all of this rushing to the “next thing” we missed some of the most loving moments? What if the biggest wins were the times we found the gold shimmering in the slivers of time as we pursued our goals? What if we really did enjoy the journey instead of rushed? This sounds cliche and easy but as a real life practice it can challenging.

I wonder why…it seems like it would be easy right? Savor, soften, open, love and enjoy! Easy enough. Yet, I notice the holding back, the protecting, the restriction of my natural flow. Sometimes I wonder if it’s easier for others? But, then think: I’m pretty sure this is something we all work with. If you don’t please share your sage wisdom!:)

I relish the moments like tonight where I intentionally slow down, pause and feel my heart in such a big and powerful way. It’s like a veil lifts and I want to forever open up my heart big and wide. Knowing this is where the magic resides.

I think it’s important to do things we are proud of, and cross the finish line and feel accomplished. This helps increase our sense of aliveness, but there is more. What about resting for awhile where we are — playing, meandering, looking for the simple beauty, relishing in the appreciation of all that is good now. What’s the rush?

My life isn’t perfect. I am not floating on some cloud with complete peace and joy. But, it’s mine. All mine to create as I choose. The sacredness of our unique lives is astonishing and yet so ordinary. I felt this tonight as I was enjoying some time with my son before he went to sleep. Something pretty much all Moms do…we support our children in getting to bed. But, I was touched by the holy honor it is to be a mother.

After we read our 4 books he said: “Cuddle Mommy.” I cuddled in and he snuggled up next to me holding his green “blankie”; which is one of my dresses that he turned into a blanket because it “smells like Mommy.”

As we lay there in the amber glow from the nightlight he is shining like the angel he is. I softly stroke his hair and face doing my best to enjoy this moment. I feel the pull to go and get ready for bed and I breathe. I don’t want to rush this moment. Not tonight.

I listen to him breathing. I’m acutely aware that one day he will no longer want his blankie or me to cuddle him to sleep. I soften. These are the moments where the divine lives. This is heaven on earth. I watch him slowly close his eyes. I stay awhile longer reveling in his perfection and then, gently get up and walk out the door with a heart full of love.

Tonight as the tears drop down on my journal I write: Open sweet one. Open. It’s really ok to feel this much! I pray to stay open to the wonder of now. Help me see the world through my heart. May I stand in all that is real, true and beautiful in my life. Help me stay connected even when I want to close. Help me love and play even more. Allow my tenderness to heal my soul.  May I feel the presence of grace everywhere, even if I don’t want to and sometimes feel scared. Let me surrender to the LOVE! I breathe in the joy and gratitude for this day. Thank you!

I know there is no getting to a perfect state of grace all the time. I know there will be days and moments the urge to rush will win. And, yet, I hold the intention to continue to remember. Remember to pause and not hurry the moments. This simple practice guides me to more fulfillment. I celebrate these moments like tonight where my heart feels like it grew. I also know I will get triggered and close. Then, I will open. Then, close. And play somewhere in between…thus, is the dance of life.
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Bliss Diary – October 15, 2015

Just keep coming home to yourself. You are the one you’ve been waiting for. — Byron Katie

Affirmation: I trust my life! ❤

Mind/Heart Goodness: I woke up and meditated with the intention that all is well. I am on the right path. And, as I was going throughout my day I noticed the inner gremlins had a bunch of “opinions”.

I did some turnarounds on some of the the thoughts that were making me feel a bit grouchy to:

  • My life as a stay at home Momma is awesome. I love the joy and the simplicity and the ease that flows with regular routines. There is so much joy available if I am willing to look for it.
  • It’s all good I can’t drive (when you have seizures or even faint and take an ambulance ride they turn it into the DMV and you can’t drive for a period of time). It just means I get to simplify more and find new things to explore within in walking distance.
  • What I am going through right now in regards to my health is only guiding me to wholeness. I wouldn’t be growing in the way that I am right now if I didn’t have 2 seizures. It’s a blessing in disguise. I can see at least 5 ways this is true – #1 being we met with Daniel Amen on Tuesday! Hello, talk about AWESOME!
  • I am grateful that our kitchen is being remediated and we will soon have our dishwasher back. I am thankful I was so proactive and thrilled to have the mold out of our home!
  • I am blessed to have the opportunity, resources and knowledge to prepare our family’s meals with the most nutrient rich ingredients. It’s actually really fun if I let myself enjoy it! 🙂

This is the practice. Can we do it on the days we don’t don’t feel like or life doesn’t go the way we think it should? Life is as it should be! Now. Today. Always. I reminded myself this again and again throughout the day. 😉

What I learned from my toddler: I looked at the dishes in the sink. I sometimes resist doing them. We’ve been doing dishes by hand for the last month while getting the mold out and re-building. Thankfully, we have 2 sinks so we can still cook and clean. But, ok, back to the dishes…

I committed to getting them done and asked my 3 year old son if he wanted to help. He enthusiastically said: YES! Get what Dampa made (it’s a learning tower my step dad made for him). He was JAZZED to do the dishes! (Ha so great!) He jumped up and grabbed the sponge and started washing away. Then, he filled a big bowl of water and proceeded to dump it all over the counter and floor. sophocles-quotes-24562

I had to laugh as there was water everywhere while also reminding myself it’s all good.  I’ve been practicing being warm neutral, observing and stating what I notice for the last 3 years (Thanks to RIE). It’s been instrumental as I navigate this whole parenting process.

So, I calmly said: I noticed you filled the bowl and dumped it on the counter and floor. Is there a reason you did that?
He said: I just did it!
Then, I said: Ok, you can dump bowls of water in the sink but I don’t want it on the counter or the floor. Please keep all the water in the sink.
He said: OK and kept washing. No big Deal (NBD as we say in our house). We finished the dishes and he was actually really helpful and made it so much more fun! 🙂

I thought to myself. Life’s actually easier if we don’t bring the drama. I could have made it a bigger deal. But, the beauty of children is they explore, that’s what they are wired to do. If we get upset as they experiment with life it just shows we have some work to do, not them.

And, at the end of the day…What is my intention? My intention is to trust, experience joy and have a beautiful relationship with my child. TRUST! FLOW! JOY! SURRENDER!

Transformation is available every day no matter what we are doing! It’s always there waiting for us to step into our power if we are willing. It doesn’t have to be a big thing. It can be as simple as washing the dishes with a toddler. And, the best part is we can either make it a game and enjoy the process or suffer. It’s not always easy but so worth the effort to choose fun and ease! 🙂

Nutrition:
* bulletproof coffee with 1/2 TB mct oil + 1 tsp ghee + 3 TB coconut cream + collagen +  stevia
* 16 oz green juice (celery, cucumber, parsley, ginger and a splash of apple)
* lulu’s maca chocolate buttercups with some plantain chips
* chocolate delish muffins + ginger kombucha
* 4 oz green juice + cauliflower rice w/bone broth + little bit of steak + olives + pasta sauce

— Wondering about my love affair with chocolate.;) And, also changing to decaf coffee and only going to have it on occasion. It’s been a good month experiment but I don’t want to have it everyday. Especially, since I won’t be drinking it while pregnant. No, I’m not pregnant but getting prepared. 😉

Meditation: 15 minutes

Movement: 35 minute walk/jog/stride on the bike path pushing the stroller + a 15 minute walk later in the day.

Rest: Bed at 9:30 last night and woke up at 5:30 am & a took a 30 minute napitation while my son napped.

Gratitude & Appreciation:  I am super grateful for Dr. Daniel Amen and his decades of research and pioneering. We had an amazing visit with him earlier this week! WOW! I am still integrating it all and really excited to increase my brain power even more. I am grateful for my beautiful computer. I am grateful for clean drinking water. I am thankful my cousin had a glorious birth and welcomed her first child into the world. New life…it’s a beautiful thing. I am grateful for all of my coaches and mentors over the years. It’s amazing how much I’ve learned and changed.

Thank you to the ordinarily extraordinary day that allowed me to continue to blossom where I stand and to my toddler who continuously shows me how to fully live out loud in such a real and authentic way!  May I continue to see all the blessings I have in my life. #thankyou

Ok, my son is loudly expressing he’s ready to go! Sending love!

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Magical & Miraculous Love List

There are two ways to live: you can live as if nothing is a miracle; you can live as if everything is a miracle.
Albert Einstein

These are a 9 of my favorite experiences from last week:

❤ My son turned 3 years old. What a beautiful journey. He is the light of my life. He inspires me to rise up and be who I am (even more). His birthday is also a celebration of my initiation into motherhood. I was forever changed the day he was born. I gave birth at home in our bedroom and it was one of the best and most powerful days of my life. Motherhood can be such a vital expression of our creativity as mothers (in my humble opinion). In many ways this “art” form is raising me as much as I am raising my child.

I interviewed the late incredibly glorious Gabrielle Roth (creator of 5 rhythms) about 7 years ago and one of the things that stayed with me was how much she said having her son transformed her. While most of her friends were going off to be with gurus, going to mediate in the Himalayas and seeking enlightenment she decided to have a child.  I’ve remembered and thanked her for her wise words over and over the last 3 years.

Motherhood has been one of the biggest spiritual practices of my life. Everything that we need for spiritual awakening and growth happens in the day to day life with a child. If we are willing to see it…it’s all there and we can grow from everything (yes, even the laundry, the crying, the night wakings, the boundary testing, and all the attention and care that is needed to help these little people thrive). This is where we see what we’re made of, we see our cracks that need some extra lovin’, and we embody our power and gifts. Children help us see deeper into who we truly are.

❤ This is one of my favorite miraculous moments ever. So…I’ve been reading Dr. Daniel Amen and loving his brain wisdom. I was talking to my husband on Sunday about wanting to go to one of his clinics to get a SPECT scan so I can see how my brain is functioning.

Monday morning Dr. Amen serendipitously emailed Brian about his revised and updated book: Change Your Brain, Change Your life that will be coming out soon. Long story short, Brian told him about my 2 seizures and mold and we are both going to do scans and do a consultation with him next week.

Whhhhaaaat!?! Totally jazzed and over the moon grateful! He is literally the *perfect* doctor for me to see. He is one of the world’s best in his expertise on brain, mold and thyroid function. I am in awe and definitely did a big happy dance when we booked our appointments! 🙂

❤ Taking a walk one morning with my son and our dog at 6:45 am. Aaaaammmmazing! Beautiful reminder of the simple joys of life. The glorious sun, the fresh crisp morning air, the vibrant trees…life really is a grand adventure. There was such a joy, lightness and freedom that moved through all of us as we played in the early morning radiance. An early-morning walk is a blessing for the whole day. — Henry David Thoreau

❤ I also loved this TED talk about Jane McGonigal called: The game that can give you 10 extra years of your life. She found herself bedridden and suicidal following a severe concussion, she had a fascinating idea for how to get better. She dove into the scientific research and created the healing game, SuperBetter. She explains how a game can boost resilience — and promises to add 7.5 minutes to your life. My take away: It’s all a game. Have fun. Be you. Play full out. Losing is part of the game. Express yourself + be creative. Let yourself be happy!! #boom

Elizabeth Gilbert interviewing Brene Brown on Big Strong Magic!   Sooooo gooood! Elizabeth is the The author of BIG MAGIC and Brene Brown, is the author of RISING STRONG. This talk is about how essential creativity is for healthy, wholehearted living. I listened to it while rebounding and had to stop a few times to take a few deep breaths with tears in my eyes. I *loved* Brene’s book and I am just starting to dive into Big Magic.

❤ I got a few “passionate” dislikes and comments on my video about no longer being vegan. This wasn’t the most magical or miraculous thing (ha) but what I loved about it was my emotional process. I observed as I felt pissed off and then a softening happened and I saw it all with compassion. Compassion for myself and for the people who criticize.

I then decided to watch the video. While watching it I felt proud because I think it’s an important topic. I felt a strong resolve to continue to express my truth even if it goes against everything I believed to be true last year (month, day). I felt the freedom and flexibility that comes from being willing to experiment. “All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

❤ Cranialsacral session the other day. I am relatively new to cranialsacral work. My intention was to remove physical and emotional obstacles that may be constricting the flow. I had a profound experience as she was doing her “work”.

Last year at this time our dog was attacked at the beach. In our session the image of our sweet dog dying presented itself. I viscerally felt the fear, the helplessness and sadness gripping in my body. I acknowledged it and I let it be there. Then, something shifted, I felt a release. I realized I didn’t want to hold on to the fear any more.

She died, there is nothing I can do to change that. I can wish it didn’t happen but that won’t bring her back. I then had the realization that I didn’t want to send her off to the light with my worry and helplessness…I wanted to send her off with love. My heart broke open as tears filled my eyes. I had a sweet chat with her and the floodgates of love flowed through me.

This didn’t make all the sadness go away as I went through the whole experience again but what it did do was let me bring more love into my body and soften the fear and smile as I said a goodbye prayer with a heart full of gratitude remembering: Life and death are one thread, the same line viewed from different sides. — Lao Tzu Thank you sweet Zoey for giving so much. I love you.

❤ This blog. Grateful to have a place to share my stories, passions and life. I do it for the love of it. I do it because I’m called to do it. It’s a sacred space to share my creativity and it makes me smile. It feels good to be back in the game after years of not blogging. There is peace in knowing I am doing what I am here to do. I am honoring my sacred contract with my soul. Sometimes celebrating the magic lies in the simplicity. The simple creations may not seem like that big of a deal but they are. The way we choose to live our life is our greatest art. Zeus

❤ This morning in my meditation practice. I felt really supported and loved. I have an amazing support system. And, I had tears feeling the love and joy. I savored the grateful overflow. My dog must have been feeling it too because he rested in my lap. I felt like I was wrapped in a beautiful blanket of support. #grateful

Magic, Miracles + Love Abound,

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Body Shame to Body Love

I had a body love moment when I looked in the mirror last week and I talked about in the video above. I felt a huge wave of gratitude because that wasn’t always the case. Like many woman I’ve worked with body image issues throughout the years.  I shared a bit of my personal story and the 4 practices I believe have helped decrease shameful thoughts/feelings about my body and also help me celebrate the unique beauty in all women!

Ok, I hear a toddler wanting to play by saying: “Put me in.” He’s really into being wrapped up in blankets and then pretending he’s a caterpillar and finding a hole and coming out as a butterfly. So awesome and sweet and one of those times when you smile in awe of how amazing these little people are! 🙂

May we all continue to invite play into our transformation process.

Sending body love,

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