Bliss Diary – July 18, 2015

You are the sky. Everything else – it’s just the weather.
Pema Chödrön

7:00 morning delight tea
8:30 3 scrambled eggs + mashed cauliflower
1:45 small handful of olives
3:30 salmon w/primal mayo + nori sheets w/ 1/2 of blueberry “jello”
5:30 1/4 c. blueberries + fresh coconut meat + little bit of coconut water

5 minute walk
10 minute vibratrim

Meditation: 15 minutes + 30 minute guided meditation (mini nap)

Sleep: I was in bed at 9:15 and up at 4:45 (that’s when the little guy woke up) ~7.5 hours

Body Goodness: I was really craving chocolate today. This happens as I move into the pre-menstrual phase. I wondered if I was needing extra magnesium so I rubbed some ancient minerals gel on my body hoping that would help. It didn’t. 🙂 I chose not to have some but I did have the thought that this might be a good time to enjoy some in moderation. I haven’t wanted it all for almost two weeks. It hasn’t been challenging to give it up until today.

Mind/Heart Goodness: We all have these voices. I am intrigued by them. Where the heck do they come from? Why do they have such strong opinions? Why can they be so critical sometimes? I know a lot of these voices are passed down to us from family and society. I think they are trying to protect us, keep us in line so we won’t be judged, bullied, or criticized. Their intention (although not a very empowering one) is to keep us safe. Do we really want to live a comfortable and “safe” life?

Every once in awhile I notice thoughts wanting things to be easier. This voice thinks that one day I will figure it all out and everything will be easy and comfortable. I will hit a point where the whole following my bliss thing won’t feel like such a heroine’s journey. I won’t make any mistakes. I will always feel super empowered and move through fears and doubts. I won’t ever get hurt nor will the people I love. I realize this is ridiculous but this doesn’t stop this voice from trying to persuade me that if I work a little bit harder I will find the smooth sailing path.

The other night the hubby and I were listening to Alison Armstrong. It’s our habit to listen for at least 1 minute every night. She was saying that women have a “better woman” in their head judging her every move. This “better woman” says things like: A better woman would have already done that, or wouldn’t have that issue, or if you really had it together that would never happen to you, etc.

My best way to work with this “better woman” voice is to listen to it and say silently or out loud: I get that you think there everything should have it’s designated place, and I should wear my hair down more…be more fashionable, and get more of “everything” done, not need to take naps, and rock a weekly meal plan, etc. Then, inquire: Is it true that I should do all of these things? What will happen if I don’t do them? What am I scared people will say or think about me?

There is usually some level of fear that I am not doing it right or good enough or there is something wrong. When I see this I can shine some light and then rise up and move from heart and authenticity rather than the “better woman’s” commands and criticisms. I can move from love rather than fear. It takes some work but it is well worth it. 🙂

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for rain. We’ve really needed it so it I enjoyed the rainy day. I had flashbacks of when we lived in Bali. The rain there was magical. am grateful for my awesome colonic. I am grateful for a super chill day. I am grateful for my body and health. I am grateful for naps and guided meditations. I am grateful for all the women who push through their fears to create a life they love. I am continually inspired by the power of women. I am grateful for the new novel I am reading: Sara by Esther and Jerry Hicks. I am grateful for all the functional doctors who are paving the way and changing the world. #thankyou


Bliss Diary – June 16, 2015

Do less, observe more, enjoy most. — Magda Gerber

My mornings routine (most days):
I co-sleep with my son and he usually wakes me up around 5:30-5:45 am. We nurse and cuddle until about 6 am. Then, E will yell, “Daaadddy!” And, Brian will yell back, “Buudddy.” B stops working and comes down and we have a short little family time. Then, he goes back to work and E and I will go in the kitchen and get breakfast ready.

We enjoy breakfast and play and go outside to see the sun for a little bit and sometimes go for a walk. I usually do some sort of cleaning up during this time. Brian comes down around 8 ish and he will be with E for 45-60 minutes while I get my workout, meditation and sometimes write/create. If the kitchen needs some extra love the boys like to help with this (except they didn’t today hehe). I love a clean kitchen, especially when I don’t have to do it. 🙂

*morning delight (aka fat) tea
*clean gut shake w/coconut milk/ground flax/chia seed
*16 oz green juice
*my go to salad – 1 avocado, 1 head of romaine, dulse, nori, lemon, coconut aminos and mashed together with some raw wraps + baked chicken

* 20 minutes of Goddess dance
* 5 minute rebounding
* 15 min rebounding (watching my interview about cycle syncing. good refresher)

Affirmation/Intention: I choose to give the gift of presence to myself and others today.

Body Goodness: I am honoring my cycle today. 🙂

Meditation: 20 minute meditation during an acupuncture treatment. Ah!

Mama Lesson:
I love RIE (Resources for Infant Educarers). I heard about it when my son was about 4 months old and that week I  read Your Self-Confident Baby + Dear Parent: Caring for Infants with Respect by Magda Gerber. We started a weekly class when he was 5 1/2 months. My son will be 3 at the end of September and we’ve only missed a handful of classes. It has been transformative to say the least. I am so grateful for Liz, our RIE instructor. I value this work so much that I went to a RIE conference and their training program.

I believe RIE can help parenting become a spiritual practice by cultivating mindfulness. My intention is to follow the Principles to the best of my ability. My main focus these days is to observe more, do less, enjoy most. I’ve found that I enjoy parenting the most when I am giving presence.

There are many times during the day where I shift my attention from one thing to the next. My days aren’t created in a linear fashion with a toddler. I’ve found that it’s a constant flow…a dance. I do consciously create and delight in those periods of time I stop doing/thinking and just rest and enjoy my child. No phone. Breathing. Watching him play. Loving him. Giving him my full attention. This is a gift for both of us. I notice I am happier when I carve out time in our days to practice and be. As Magda said: “Unbusy your body. Unbusy your mind.”

When I observe and reflect what my child is doing/telling me I learn about who he truly is. When I don’t interfere with his play he has freedom to explore. It’s amazing what he can do on his own if I patiently wait. Sometimes I even silently say: “Wait…Wait” to give him space to figure out/experience whatever he’s experiencing without my interpretations and stories. It’s incredible to watch his confidence and trust in himself grows every time I do this. Thank you, RIE!

Gratitude + Appreciation:
I am sooooo grateful for our pediatrician, Jay Gordon! I talked with him today because I needed help interpreting the stool test I had done for E. His guidance, wisdom and confidence was so awesome and appreciated!!

One of the many reasons I chose him for our doctor was because he is a major advocate for breastfeeding, co-sleeping and supports no vaccinations. I know a hot topic today but one I feel passionate about. Last week he testified against the SB277 bill that will require all children that attend California schools to be vaccinated. I am so grateful for his passion, purpose and commitment to living his values! A beautiful reminder to stand powerfully for what we believe.

I am so blessed!! Good night! 🙂