Bliss Dairy – July 13, 2015

Loving ourselves through the process of owning our story is the bravest thing we’ll ever do. — Brene Brown

Intention/Affirmation: I picked 3 cards and created my intention for the day: Keep your eyes open. Joy lives in small places.You know what to do, trust your inner wisdom, and take appropriate action without delay. It is “my” mind that creates my experiences. I am unlimited in my own ability to create the good in my life.

8:30 4 muffins w/turmeric coconut buttter (added sweet potatoes instead of carrots for these)
1:30 16 oz green juice + fresh lemonade with chia seeds
2:00 small bowl of watermelon
2:30 big mixed green salad with a new olive oil dressing (needs some work ;)) + chicken
6:00 mixed berries jello like goodness (will share recipe soon) + 2 more muffins (so good!)

10 minute walk
20 minute strength workout
15 minute yin yoga before bed

Meditation: 15 minutes + 20 guided meditation

Laugh Out Loud Moment: My son was really excited about vacuuming. I told him we’d do it when he woke up from his nap. As soon as he woke up, he said: Vacuum. Then, he started picking things up off the floor. I laughed. Ok, let’s do it!  He watched (+ ran in the other room) while I vacuumed. I’m done, I said. No Mommy, there’s some more right there, he said. I laughed pretty hard and said, You’re right. He must be tapping into my declutter challenge intentions. 😉

Body Goodness: I haven’t had a sweet potato in over 3 months. I’m curious how my body will feel tomorrow after eating them in the muffins. I have another month with herbs and limited carb/fruit intake to balance my intestinal flora and heal my gut, but I wanted to experiment to see how it felt. It has been a week since I’ve taken out chocolate, and today was the first day I felt a craving for it when my energy dipped around 3:30 pm. Happy for my commitment. I do think not having it is helping my adrenals.

Mind/Heart/Spirit Goodness: I’ve been writing my bliss diary for a month now. It feels good to be doing it again. Especially since this is what I did when I started my first blog 9 years ago. In that blog I shared my daily process of preparing for a fitness show on all levels mind, body, spirit.

Side note: During that process I gave some guys I ride from Madison to Chicago. They were hitchhiking across America (hitch50). They dared me to eat a tofu dog on stage for my show. If I did it they would pay for me to go to Hawaii for 10 days, as that was their last state to hitchhike to. I’m always up for fun, so I did it. (if you’re curious you can see a clip of my show HERE haha).

Ok, back to the blogging thing. A big part of this blog is loving myself through the process of owning my story. Showing up and being real as Brene Brown says:

Authenticity is a collection of choices that we have to make every day. It’s about the choice to show up and be real. The choice to be honest. The choice to let our true selves be seen.

There is a vulnerability in letting our true selves be seen. I’ve been on this authentic path for the last 17 years, and I love it. I also know that it’s not for everyone…the whole meditation/mindfulness thang, or the organic whole foods diet, or intentional mothering, or talking about our heart essence, transformation and letting our light shine, or even the idea that women are Goddesses.

I didn’t grow up with this way of living. My mom is awesome and very tuned in but I’ve taken it to a whole other level by making it my life’s purpose. In college I used to hide my Dan Millman, Tony Robbins and Marianne Williamson books. I felt embarrassed. I thought if I liked (and needed) those books something was wrong with me.

Then, I met my first spiritual teacher, Barbara! She was my light. I did spiritual counseling with her all through college. I used to do reiki treatments before my college volleyball games. It felt like two different lives. As the years have passed I’ve slowly peeled the layers off and opened up to who I am and what I truly love and celebrate it rather than feeling shame about it.

And, yet…there are still those fears that come up once in awhile. What will people think? One of my mentors from the past, Terry Cole Whittaker wrote a book called: What you think of me is none of my business. So true and… it still sucks to be made fun of or criticized. No one enjoys that feeling so we subtly (or not so subtly) hide.

I can still remember those times when I was criticized…it felt like I had been punched in the gut. In college I was in a fitness magazine and a big thing erupted on the college forums with all sorts of nasty things about me along with a whole bunch of positive things. But, the negativity stuck and hurt (big time).  I wanted to hide. I was even upset that I was in the magazine. I didn’t want to shine my light.

How do we stay true to who we are and not diminish ourselves to be liked or to fit in?

I love blogging and sharing because it connects me to myself and I also know that the people who dig these types of “conversations” will resonate with what I share. There are (and have been) haters that won’t like what I am doing. I have to be ok with that and keep doing my thing! As Brene Brown quotes in her book, Daring Greatly:

Don’t try to win over the haters; you are not a jackass whisperer. – Scott Stratten 🙂

Serve the lovers. Let the haters go. Loving ourselves through the process of owning our story is the bravest thing we’ll ever do. Yes, let’s do this!

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for my great day with E. We had a beautiful flow and I experienced a lot of joy, connection and amazement. I am grateful that I’m at home to see his little and big development leaps. I am grateful for our cuddling and reading time this afternoon (so sweet).  I am grateful for another great evening chat with the hubster. I am grateful for Brene Brown’s wisdom. She is such an inspiration. I am grateful all of my mentors throughout the years. I am blessed for the abundance of goodness in my life. #thankyou


Bliss Diary – July 11, 2015

By being true to all sides of your nature, you acknowledge that you can be self-confident, active and strong, that you can nurture without being weak, that you can be wild and instinctual, as well as calm and reasoning, and that you have a beautiful darkness within, a depth beyond the mundane world. — Miranda Gray, “Red Moon”

morning delight (coconut milk, tsp of ghee, tsp mct oil, tsp of maca, turmeric, pumpkin pie spice, cinnamon, collagen, stevia, longevity tea)
16 oz green juice
3 scrambled eggs w/kale + 1 carrot ginger muffin
big green goddess salad + yummy fresh salmon w/olives, nori and a 1/2 raw wrap

* 10 minute walk
* 10 minute walk + 60 minute high intensity training class (metabolic madness) + * 10 minute walk
* 10 minute vibratrim
* 10 minute walk

Meditation: 15 minutes + 30 minute napitation

Body Goodness:  I loved going to the workout class this morning. So much fun! My inner athlete was in bliss. I’ve been wanting to go for awhile and since I’m in the communication/ collaboration part of my menstrual cycle it’s the perfect time to try something new. 🙂 I feel like my energy is getting better and better too, which is exciting. I also got a colonic.

Mind/Heart/Spirit Goodness: Being true to all sides of our nature…this was in my heart and mind today. Seeing all the thoughts that float through my mind about everything. Not all of them are nice and “spiritual.” But, I’ve found that part of honoring myself is to let them be there without shame/guilt or thinking I shouldn’t even be having them.

We all have judgements, it’s part of being human. But, we don’t have to believe them or even repress them. Just notice. A lot of our thoughts are just the conditioning we’ve all had, not who we are. To quote Allan Lokos: Don’t believe everything you think. Thoughts are just that – thoughts. Letting thoughts just be thoughts. Yes! I’m in! 🙂

Someone who truly inspires this way of living is my dear friend and mentor, Catherine Ingram. Dwelling in this place I felt moved to listen to some of her audios. I am so thankful to have her in my life. She is the embodiment of presence and her wisdom has been a gift. Every time I talk with her or listen to her I feel a softening…a relaxing into an ease of being. I know she has diligently practiced over the years and it shows in who she is and how she lives. Basking in her essence/beingness inspires me to be more gentle, kind and tender on this journey. There is always a jewel in whatever moment we are in.

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for our neighbor. Our dog got out and was running in the street and he saved him. So so so grateful!!  I am grateful for colonics and Lissa, my awesome therapist. I am grateful for the sweet park right by our house. I am grateful for Emerson and Brian, they make my life so much richer. I am grateful for my B’s support with E so I could have a mini self-care morning. #godads! I am grateful for all the laughter I experienced today (+ every day). I am grateful for all the people I continuously learn from. #thankyou


Bliss Diary – June 20, 2015

I’ve missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I’ve lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I’ve been trusted to take the winning shot and missed. I’ve failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed. 
Michael Jordan

I grew up in the good ole midwest, Illinois specifically. I *loved* Michael Jordan + the Chicago Bulls. I had a life size poster of Jordan on my wall along with another one of him “flying” through the air for a dunk. I love the quote above and I get goosebumps every time I watch the video below. I’ve failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.

What is success? 9000 missed shots? I think about my life…am I willing to “miss” 9000 shots? Could I “fail” that much? Makes me think of my dear friend & mentor, Alan Cohen who said in one of our interviews: “If at first you don’t succeed, then redefine success.” (Thanks to Ellen Mary for pulling that one out ;)). We get to make the rules. I think sometimes we limit ourselves because we make really crappy rules on what success looks like (well, at least I do).

What if we consistently chose to do things that scared us? What would our lives look like if we were willing to look like a failure or weird or an idiot? What if people criticized us? These are all things I continue to work with. I’m still practicing living out loud (the title of my first blog back in 2006). 🙂

Toddler Teaching Moment: My son has two pairs of moccasins. He wanted to wear one of each today. So…he’d be wearing two different shoes. At first I said: “They don’t match.” Then, I stopped and thought: “Why not? Why couldn’t he wear his shoes like that?” I had a quick chat with myself and realized there isn’t a certain rule on how you have to wear your shoes. I smiled. And, said: “Let’s do it.” I helped him put his shoes on and we went on our adventure. 🙂

warm lemon water + pinch of sea salt
morning delight tea/smoothie
16 oz green juice (post run)
big salad with/primal mayo, dulse, avocado, romaine, chlorella powder mashed together wrapped in seasnak (nori) sheets
fresh ginger tea + lemon with a splash of stevia drink
raw homemade ice cream before dinner then had cauliflower rice with 3 scrambled egg yolks

Movement: Exercising is important to me. I enjoy moving my body but I think I enjoy the way I feel (during + after) the most. I try to incorporate movement into my life as much as possible.

I know some at home Mamas talk about getting dressed up and ready for the day. I approach it a bit differently. I do a super simple beauty routine (like under 5 minutes) and put my workout clothes on so that I am ready for as many OTM’s (Opportunities To Move) as possible.

If you’re wanting some inspiration check out the hubsters’s PhilosophersNotes TV episode on No Sweat by Michelle Segar by clicking HERE.

* 10 min walk + 20 min run pushing E in the stroller
* 20+ min walking around town doing errands with E
I went to a bday party + was cruising all around/playing ping pong – life with a toddler = movement! 🙂
* 20 minute foam roller myofascial release before bed 

Affirmation: I am vital and energized. I’ve got this!

Body Goodness: I am feeling good in my body. It felt really great to run this morning. It’s amazing how great it feels to  move my body. I notice resistance (most times) but I’m always happy I did it. I am also feeling good and optimistic about my gut healing cleanse. Things seem to be moving along (pun intended ha).  I am looking forward to seeing how great I feel at the end of the 6-8 weeks of repairing/healing. 

Gratitude + Appreciation: I am grateful for all my sweet Mama friends. I am grateful for all the good people out in the world. I appreciate all the simple and profound moments I have with my son every day. I appreciate the freedom I have in all areas of my life. I am grateful for our awesome little doggie, Zeus. I am grateful for my amazing body and all that it does every day to keep me healthy.