Bliss Diary – October 26, 2015

To keep faith with life is to experience that everything — everything that comes to us, whatever it is — has it’s place in the puzzle of our existence. — Roger Housden

I am starting my Optimized Brain & Body Game today. The gist of the game is to win the day for the next 5 weeks. I do this by honoring the nutrition protocol and doing 5 energy generators, 1 adventure and avoiding 5 obstacles. #wootwoot

Affirmation: I’m on fire with life! It’s all good!

Nutrition:
* 7:30 cup of bulletproof decaff coffee with 2 tsp of mct oil + tsp of ghee
* 9:30 25 oz green juiceFullSizeRender
* 10:30 celeric soup w/ sauteed purple cabbage topped with olives + a slice of bacon
* 2:30 3 scrambled eggs + sweet potato fries + probably 2 oz of my son’s smoothie (1/2 green apple, 1/3 c of mango, 1 small cucumber, 1/4 avocado, 8 oz green juice = suuuuper good!)
* 5:30 ish 25 oz green juice + then around 6:30 had a little bit of ground beef and a pickleFullSizeRender-1

Body Goodness: Day 1 and I woke up with a little bit of a headache.;)  This almost never happens but it fueled my desire even more. I want to feel really good in my body. This is why I am playing this game. I got up and did my normal routine and committed to having a wonderful day and knew that once I drank a bunch of water and got moving it would go away. By 8:30 I felt awesome! I felt on my game and inspired for most of the day. I did notice a drop in energy and enthusiasm around 3:30 pm but knew that it would pass (helps to have a practice to not dive into stories too much).

Mind & Heart Goodness: I notice that one of my biggest complaints is lack of energy. This morning in my meditation I reminded myself that I am the one who gets to choose my energy. I can do a lot of things to generate more energy and power in my body that only take 1-5 minutes. Do something – anything-  to get into motion!

I am changing the habit of fatigue. I noticed how much I can believe the lack of energy story and the more I believe it the more it keeps me locked into feeling tired. I decided to consciously choose ENERGY today. No matter what. I choose vitality, health and joy!

Even when I felt my energy dip in the afternoon I knew I could do things to increase my mojo. I acknowledged the tiredness while also noticing that I could still find aspects of joy and energy even with a lower sense of vitality. I can use tiredness to my advantage. It can be a signal to slow down, breathe and be with it (not make myself wrong for feeling this way which is another habit I am working on;). I keep reminding myself to not believe everything I think, especially when I’m feeling tired. 🙂

Gratitude & Appreciation: I feel so blessed to be able to play this game. I feel grateful for the inspiration that is flowing through me. I am grateful for all the people that inspire me daily. I am grateful for green juice (love that stuff). I am grateful for my husband and son. Life is so much better with them. I am grateful for my freedom. I am grateful to be able to create my life the way I do. I am grateful for all that books I get to read. I am grateful for all the healthy and delicious food we have in our kitchen. I a grateful to have our kitchen put back together after the remediation. I am grateful for my passion and curiosity. I am grateful for all the sweet littler interactions with have with our local community every day. I am grateful for our beautiful home. I am grateful for my Mom and all of her support and love. I am grateful Fall is here. I love this time of year. 🙂

Energy Generators: I win one point for each one of these
15 minute meditation
20 minute rebounding
10 minute morning sun + grounding on some dirt in the backyard (2 points)
Green juice
5 minute self-massage (head and shoulders)
10 deep breaths
“I’ve got spirit cheer” — This was some loud whooohoooo’s + yeaaaaaahs with some cheerleading jumps (ridiculous, fun and energizing ;))
5 + 5 + 5 minute errand walk pushing stroller
35 minute napitation
1 song dance
Gratitude practice
Family Walk
Daily supplements
Bed at 9:15

14 points

Adventures: I win 3 points for each one of these.
1. Do the work (Byron Katie style) + Daniel Amen’s ANTS (Automatic Negative Thoughts) practice on something that is triggering me

3 points

Obstacles: 1 point for jumping over/avoiding these.
1. No kombucha
2. No sweeteners
3. No dairy
4. No legumes
5. No grains
6. No vegetable oils
7. Laziness (mostly in regards to not wanting to make food)
8. Stop negative self-talk and victim thinking (+ reframe)

8 Points

Today I won the day! #YES! Total Score: 25 points

Can I get a higher score tomorrow? 😉

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P.S. I am recording this every day and will post my diary on occasion. 🙂

Bliss Diary – July 11, 2015

By being true to all sides of your nature, you acknowledge that you can be self-confident, active and strong, that you can nurture without being weak, that you can be wild and instinctual, as well as calm and reasoning, and that you have a beautiful darkness within, a depth beyond the mundane world. — Miranda Gray, “Red Moon”

Nutrition:
morning delight (coconut milk, tsp of ghee, tsp mct oil, tsp of maca, turmeric, pumpkin pie spice, cinnamon, collagen, stevia, longevity tea)
16 oz green juice
3 scrambled eggs w/kale + 1 carrot ginger muffin
big green goddess salad + yummy fresh salmon w/olives, nori and a 1/2 raw wrap

Movement:
* 10 minute walk
* 10 minute walk + 60 minute high intensity training class (metabolic madness) + * 10 minute walk
* 10 minute vibratrim
* 10 minute walk

Meditation: 15 minutes + 30 minute napitation

Body Goodness:  I loved going to the workout class this morning. So much fun! My inner athlete was in bliss. I’ve been wanting to go for awhile and since I’m in the communication/ collaboration part of my menstrual cycle it’s the perfect time to try something new. 🙂 I feel like my energy is getting better and better too, which is exciting. I also got a colonic.

Mind/Heart/Spirit Goodness: Being true to all sides of our nature…this was in my heart and mind today. Seeing all the thoughts that float through my mind about everything. Not all of them are nice and “spiritual.” But, I’ve found that part of honoring myself is to let them be there without shame/guilt or thinking I shouldn’t even be having them.

We all have judgements, it’s part of being human. But, we don’t have to believe them or even repress them. Just notice. A lot of our thoughts are just the conditioning we’ve all had, not who we are. To quote Allan Lokos: Don’t believe everything you think. Thoughts are just that – thoughts. Letting thoughts just be thoughts. Yes! I’m in! 🙂

Someone who truly inspires this way of living is my dear friend and mentor, Catherine Ingram. Dwelling in this place I felt moved to listen to some of her audios. I am so thankful to have her in my life. She is the embodiment of presence and her wisdom has been a gift. Every time I talk with her or listen to her I feel a softening…a relaxing into an ease of being. I know she has diligently practiced over the years and it shows in who she is and how she lives. Basking in her essence/beingness inspires me to be more gentle, kind and tender on this journey. There is always a jewel in whatever moment we are in.

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for our neighbor. Our dog got out and was running in the street and he saved him. So so so grateful!!  I am grateful for colonics and Lissa, my awesome therapist. I am grateful for the sweet park right by our house. I am grateful for Emerson and Brian, they make my life so much richer. I am grateful for my B’s support with E so I could have a mini self-care morning. #godads! I am grateful for all the laughter I experienced today (+ every day). I am grateful for all the people I continuously learn from. #thankyou

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Bliss Diary – July 9, 2015

Joy is prayer, Joy is strength, Joy is love, Joy is a net of love by which you can catch soul. — Mother Teresa

Intention/Affirmation/Mantra:  “How can I serve today, sweet Spirit? How can I serve, oh Lord? Speak in ways that I will understand. Where You lead me, I will follow. Where You lead me, I will go.”

Nutrition:
7:30 longevity tea w/2 TB coconut cream + 1 tsp mct oil + few drops of stevia + collagen
10:30 4 carrot ginger muffins w/ turmeric coconut butter
3:00 handful of coconut chips
4:45 2 cups of nettle + raspberry leaf tea + small spoonful of turmeric coconut butter
5:30 salmon w/ primal mayo wrapped in nori sheets + homemade kale chips + 5 olives

Movement:FullSizeRender-1
* 60 minute adventure/walk around town w/ E wearing a pair of my old sunglasses with a rubber band to keep them on + a belt around his neck. Hilarious + Awesome!! 🙂
* 5 minute Goddess dance
* 45 minute hike/adventure w/ E

Meditation: 15 minutes + 30 minute napitation

Raise The Vibration Goddess Prayer:

Body Goodness: This week I read Moon Time: Harness the ever-changing energy of your menstrual cycle. As I’ve said in other posts, I am really diggin’ this idea of cyclical living. I realized I bought a few books years ago but never read them. Now, I feeling called to explore and experiment. I always learn what I need when I’m ready to learn it. 🙂

There are 4 phases for a menstruating women every month. The idea is to become aware of what we feel like in our mind, body, emotional life so that we can create our lives around our cycle and ensure we are optimized throughout the month. The week we are menstruating is called the analysis phase, then the initiation phase, then the communication/collaboration phase, then completion phase. (Got these phases from Alisa Vitti)

I am currently in the communication and collaboration phase (day 16). I can totally feel an increase in my energy and a desire for more connection and collaboration with other women. This tends to be a really goooood space for me. I feel pretty light, free and passionate and have an abundance of creativity and joy. #WootWoot

Mind/Heart/Spirit Goodness: I feel a strong inspiration and enthusiasm to optimize. It seems like I’ve always had this inner desire to grow and expand. I also have to be aware of the Superwoman Persona, she likes to creep in the back door and outshine the joy. If I feel the pushing to prove rather than the pulling of something greater than myself I check in with the stories I’m telling and tune back into the frequency of intuition. Today, was all about resting in that blissful place and giving those “not good enough” voices time off. They’ve had their day (years). It’s time to shift! To quote Michale Bernard Beckwith from his song, One Day in Heaven:

Notice and release your acquisitive nature
That part of you that wants to get something to be happy
Instead shift your awareness and ask the question
“How can I bring value to these individuals that are
coming into my life?
And, reminding myself that I bring value by doing the work and having infinite patience in whatever areas I’m playing with. I will always be changing, everything is dynamic. There is no getting there, it’s all right here, change happens now, today. Karen Maezen Miller brings this one home:

You can change in an instant. You can change your mind. You can change your timing. You can change your approach. You can change your words. You can laugh instead of scream. You can hop on one foot. You can step away from the fray instead of stepping in. You can give up, give in, and go in a completely different direction than you’d like to. You can do the dishes later. What then? What next? The Zen master has told you, “You embody the golden breeze.” You are change. You have infinite power to relax, to release, to change, and thus to change everything. If you find that you don’t have the energy or the good humor to do so this time, I will understand. There will be many opportunities afforded you.

Yes, we always have the choice to do something differently. What would our lives feel like if we moved from opportunity to opportunity knowing it is all unfolding with divine perfection? We either show up authentically or not. If not, we get back in the game and give it another go. Who I choose to be today will impact my tomorrows. There is no need to strive for perfection, as we all know that doesn’t exist. Yet, living in integrity with my soul is paramount. Am I living in integrity with my Highest Self? I’m the only one that can know. When the limiting voices are silenced, I believe we all know. Remember, you embody the golden breeze. Let the breeze guide you.

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for my yummy muffins. I am grateful for the fun hike we did. It was a perfect day. So much love and laughter. I’m continually in awe watching my son grow and learn. I am grateful for Beckwith (love that guy!).  I am grateful for all the women who’ve commented and shared love about this blog. I am grateful for the Oasis peeps, such an amazing community. I am grateful that I’m a mother and a wife. Wow. It’s a totally different stage of my life and I am so blessed to be living the life that I do. #infinitegratitude

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Bliss Diary – July 8, 2015

The only gift is a portion of thyself.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Nutrition:
7:00 longevity tea w/few tb coconut cream + tsp mct oil + 2 scoops collagen
10:00 16 oz green juice
10:30 bowl of coconut chips (chose this instead of making food so I could write this blog ;))
1:00 goddess green salad w/ salmon on a raw asian wrap
3:00 25 oz lemon, ginger, few drops of stevia
6:15 bowl of cauliflower rice/nori/bone broth/spinach/coconut oil/sea salt + ground beef + 5 olives

Movement:
10 minute walk + park time w/ little E
20 minute rebounding
60 minute adventure at the meadow walking, lunging, climbing trees, + a 30 lb toddler carry 😉

Meditation: 15 minutes + 25 minute napitation (with this little guy on my lap) FullSizeRender.jpg

Body Goodness: I am feeling sooo much better! Woot! Woot! I woke up feeling so grateful for this amazing body I have. I’m also feeling tight in my head and shoulders. I did more body scans today and noticed I unconsciously tense my body. Every time I noticed this I did some light bouncing and shook out my body combined with a few deep breaths to release the tension.

Mind/Heart Goodness: Lately, I’ve  been exploring what it means to be a creative woman and honor my choice to be at home with my son and future children. I love solitude. I’m an introvert with a splash of extrovert. I come home  when I have space to be with myself, alone. As mothers know, this isn’t something we have in abundance (especially with the little ones). Yet, it’s vital.

To quote Anne Morrow Lindbergh from her book Gift From The Sea:

The artist knows he must be alone to create; the writer, to work out his thoughts; the musician, to compose; the saint, to pray. But women need solitude in order to find again the true essence of themselves: that firm strand which will be the indispensable center of a whole web of human relationships. She must find that inner stillness which Charles Morgan describes as “stilling of the soul within the activities of the mind and body so that it might be still as the axis of a revolving wheel is still.”

Yes, how do we carry that stillness within us throughout our days even in the midst of the divine chaos called motherhood? How do we honor our creative spirits while being a powerful center for our families? How do we get our needs met so we can thrive not just survive?

I’ve been looking at motherhood as an art. The becoming a mother part is actually pretty easy. But, mothering with intention and purpose is an art. It is a creative expression…a craft to be practiced. It is one of the greatest gifts we can give to the world. I feel this. And, sometimes, I notice that I can make everything hard. The passage below is from Karen Maezen Miller’s book: Momma Zen. She’s talking with her teacher at the end of a retreat and he says:

“You seem to have a little problem with your work ethic,” he said. I didn’t follow, since I judged myself to be the hardest worker there ever was.

“You make everything work,” he said.

I do. Do you?

When you are scraping the crusted cereal from the wall with a chipped fingernail, do not think: For this I gave up a vice presidency. When you are folding a stack of late-night laundry, do not think: This is my sixth load this week and it’s only Monday. When you stand over the sink of three-day old dishes, do not think: When, oh when, will I ever catch up? And while you’re at it, please don’t complain about the mindless nature of a mother’s work. The great transformative potential of a mother’s work is that it is mindless. No thinking of any kind required.

Ah, yes and I come back to being in the moment (no thinking required.) I come back to my chosen art: FullSizeRendermotherhood. I come back to my intention to be the love, joy, stillness no matter where I am or what I am doing. Reminding myself, I get to choose how I experience my days.

What if my biggest creation was my child and who I became during the years of mothering? I smile as I look to the left of my desk at my toddler’s creation. Breathing in and breathing out. This is it. This is where the magic of transformation happens.

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for our adventure at the meadow. It’s so beautiful and fun to see my little guy explore the open land. I am grateful for music that moves me. My singing mantra today was: I am bountiful, blissful and beautiful. Totally elevated my energy. I am grateful for all of my books, yes, the ones that are still all over the floor. I am grateful for our local health food store. I am grateful for my quick chat with a fellow Momma Goddess (+ her kiddos) on our walk today. I am blessed. Thank you for another day.

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P.S. I was writing some of this while my son was playing in my office and he came up and hit my keyboard and somehow deleted a good portion of the post.

I said Argh out loud. He said: Mommy upset? A small smile breaks through the frustration. How can I be that upset when he asks me so sweetly? I said: Yes, I’m a little upset. Then, explained to him what happened requesting 5 more minutes to write. He got it and began playing again.

And then, I began again…and again…and again. This is the path of the Mother. How do we patiently, persistently, diligently, lovingly show up for ourselves and our families?