Bliss Diary – June 25, 2015

You’ve got to make a conscious choice every day to shed the old – whatever “the old” means for you.                     Sarah Ban Breathnach

morning delight
3 muffins + coconut chips from yesterday (during my son’s nap time I could make lunch or grab a snack and take a nap, I chose the latter.)
ginger kombucha
handful of plantain chips + big salad (the usual) with salmon/mayo wrapped in coconut wraps

I eat a lot of fat. I used to be moderate to low fat when I was a vegan. But, for the last 3 years I’ve been playing with seeing how much I can actually eat. It’s been an interesting and tasty experiment. I think mostly because I’ve thought for years you should limit your fat intake if you wanted to be healthy and lean. But, food tastes better with fat. Plus, it stabilizes my blood sugar so I don’t feel hungry all the time and have way less cravings.

I haven’t gained a bunch of weight by eating large amounts of fat but I also haven’t gotten any leaner. I do notice the less carbohydrates I have the better my tests are in regards to blood sugar, hemoglobin A1c, triglycerides, etc. I’m kinda nerdy about this stuff. I like to test and see what’s actually happening in my body.

My whole perspective on nutrition has changed drastically in the last 3 years. I am more open, less dogmatic and curious about what is ideal for my body and listening to it. I’ve learned that grains don’t work well for me. I also know that a lower carbohydrate diet (not ketonic) feels good (now). I rarely eat fruit, and don’t really miss it. I also know that low sugar is an important part of healing my gut. So…that’s what I am focusing in regards to my nutrition.

Body Goodness: I’ve been taking cleansing herbs for the last 10 days. The two major ones I am taking are:  RepairVite + GI-Synergy by Apex Energetics + Supplements from the Clean Gut kit which is digestive enzymes, probiotics, b-complex and a form of berberine. I am also taking fish oil, and algae dha + epa, magnesium, and vitamin c.

It feels good and comprehensive. I will do another stool test in a month or so to see where I’m at. Everything feels good and I also think a little bit more sleep might give me a bit more healing power. My total hours slept last week were 57.5 which which averages out to a little over 8 hours a night. I am wondering how I’d feel if I got 8.5 a night? 🙂

* 19 minute tabata strength workout (6 rounds of 6 sets) – lunges, kettelbell swings, kettlebell deadlifts to row, bicyle abs, 16 lb medicine ball squats w/shoulder press, plank
* 5 minute walk

Meditation: 15 minutes + 45 minute napitation (guided meditation + nap)

Mind/Heart Goodness:
I’ve been thinking about breastfeeding this week. My son will be 3 in 3 months. He still nurses 2-3 times a day. I feel incredibly proud and grateful that I’ve been able to give this gift to him. We had a challenges with latching for 3 months but I was committed. I eventually found out that he had a posterior tongue tie (after lots of experts + research + mama’s intuition) and we had a midwife help us with that and we never had an issue again. Amazing!! There was no way I was not going to breastfeed my baby. We found a way even through my pain and tears.

I’ve always loved the sweet connection. Nursing is actually one of my greatest joys. There is something so powerful and beautiful about feeding and nourishing your child from your body and gazing into his eyes. Mama Goddess embodied. It has also been a big commitment. I’ve never pumped so I was on call a lot. It nourished me though. The oxytocin release has been awesome for our bond.

Obviously, every child weans. It’s part of these little people growing up. Yet, there is still a little sadness. When will the last time we nurse be? There’s the joy of expansion and also the tears and the lump in my throat about the completion of that phase in our relationship. I’m not sure when it will end. But, I know that it is near. Especially working with thyroid and adrenal issues. Mama needs some recovery before she jumps back into baby land again. 😉

Appreciation & Gratitude: I am grateful for my mama friends and their sweet babies. We had a great play date today. I am grateful for epic nourishing naps.  I am grateful for all of my books. I books. I am grateful for all the my body does every day. I am grateful for my adrenals and thyroid. I am grateful for my breathe. I am grateful for the journey.


Bliss Diary – June 12, 2015

Every positive change–every jump to a higher level of energy and awareness–involves a rite of passage. Each time to ascend to a higher rung on the ladder of personal evolution, we must go through a period of discomfort, of initiation. I have never found an exception.
Dan Millman

What’s on my mind:
I am getting ready to do a healing gut protocol next week.  Our friend, Dr. Junger, gifted
us with a Clean Gut Cleanse and it arrived yesterday. I am excited to dive in. I’ve done a lot of cleanses in the past including the original clean cleanse. They even hired me to do some videos and interviews for them back in 2010. I am grateful and I dig team Clean. 🙂 

I am also working with my acupuncturist doing treatments and taking additional herbs to cleanse, repair and build. I will share more as I go. My main intention is to heal my gut even more in the next two months.

I did a bunch of blood, saliva, adrenal, thyroid and stool tests in the last few months. Now I have an even clearer game plan of where I’m headed which is exciting! Optimal health has been a passion for the last 18 years. It has lead me to become a holistic health coach, massage therapist, private trainer and create my own business.

I love eating and making healthy food. We eat 95-100% of our meals at home. Eating a nutrient diet is actually really easy for me nowadays. That wasn’t always the case. It’s astonishing how much I’ve learned and changed over the years. I feel like I’m at a big healthy tipping point. All the years of making little changes are adding up and I’m ascending to the next ladder of my personal evolution. #yes #letsdothis

fat tea (cacao butter, mct oil, cacao powder, collagen, coconut milk, vanilla, cinnamon, stevia)
2 raw flatbread wraps + ginger kombucha
lucuma cacao (dessert first) + salmon + big salad with mixed greens, avocado, lemon, coconut aminos, lecithin, dulse, hemp seeds (toddler approved)

*5 minute rebounding + 10 min walk
*family adventure evening walk
*10 slow sun salutations + 20 min yin yoga

I trust myself. I know what’s best for my body and my life. ❤

Body Goodness: I am feeling kinda blah in my body today. I know it’s time to cleanse and yet there is part of me that is resisting. I am ready to jump to a higher level of energy and awareness therefore I am willing to move through the discomfort. I am ready to step up and out in an even bigger way…to shine even brighter for myself, my family and the world. Healing my body is a big part of being my highest Goddess self.

I’ve learned to embrace the discomfort and resistance more and more. Acknowledging and accepting is just part of the process. I used to think something was wrong because I would take a big leap and then take a bunch of baby steps back. Now, I know that’s part of building habits. It doesn’t mean I suck. It just means I need to keep getting back up and do the habit again and again. Ditch the negative self-talk and stories. Keep trying. Keep doing the work. The results will come. They always do when we move through our resistance. I’m learning to embrace the plateaus + days when I don’t feel all sparkly and awesome! 🙂

Body Prayer: I pray for the strength and power to optimize my body to the fullest. May I be healthy, vibrant and turned on. May I do what’s best for my body and move through any and all resistance. My goddess radiance is increasing right here and right now. I can feel it. I say YES! I am open and available for transformation.  I am grateful for this glorious body. I love myself. I love my body. May the healing begin.

Gratitude + Appreciation: I am grateful for Dr. Junger and all of his work and passion. I am grateful for my health. I am grateful for all the farmers who grow organic produce. I am grateful for FedEx and UPS. It’s amazing how much we can get delivered right to our door. Wow! I am grateful for naps. I am grateful for books. I love love love books. I am grateful for all that I’ve learned and continue to learn. I am grateful for my son’s sweet little toddler hands. I loved that our walk today he reached up held my hand. Pure sweetness!

I am feeling blessed to be a mostly at home mama Goddess. The simple joys of being with my son are so delightful. I have so many moments throughout the day of awe, wonder and gratitude. Sometimes my days of mothering can feel long but I know this is and will continue to be my greatest work and gift to the world. #honored