7:00 morning delight tea
8:30 3 scrambled eggs + mashed cauliflower
1:45 small handful of olives
3:30 salmon w/primal mayo + nori sheets w/ 1/2 of blueberry “jello”
5:30 1/4 c. blueberries + fresh coconut meat + little bit of coconut water
5 minute walk
10 minute vibratrim
Meditation: 15 minutes + 30 minute guided meditation (mini nap)
Sleep: I was in bed at 9:15 and up at 4:45 (that’s when the little guy woke up) ~7.5 hours
Body Goodness: I was really craving chocolate today. This happens as I move into the pre-menstrual phase. I wondered if I was needing extra magnesium so I rubbed some ancient minerals gel on my body hoping that would help. It didn’t. 🙂 I chose not to have some but I did have the thought that this might be a good time to enjoy some in moderation. I haven’t wanted it all for almost two weeks. It hasn’t been challenging to give it up until today.
Mind/Heart Goodness: We all have these voices. I am intrigued by them. Where the heck do they come from? Why do they have such strong opinions? Why can they be so critical sometimes? I know a lot of these voices are passed down to us from family and society. I think they are trying to protect us, keep us in line so we won’t be judged, bullied, or criticized. Their intention (although not a very empowering one) is to keep us safe. Do we really want to live a comfortable and “safe” life?
Every once in awhile I notice thoughts wanting things to be easier. This voice thinks that one day I will figure it all out and everything will be easy and comfortable. I will hit a point where the whole following my bliss thing won’t feel like such a heroine’s journey. I won’t make any mistakes. I will always feel super empowered and move through fears and doubts. I won’t ever get hurt nor will the people I love. I realize this is ridiculous but this doesn’t stop this voice from trying to persuade me that if I work a little bit harder I will find the smooth sailing path.
The other night the hubby and I were listening to Alison Armstrong. It’s our habit to listen for at least 1 minute every night. She was saying that women have a “better woman” in their head judging her every move. This “better woman” says things like: A better woman would have already done that, or wouldn’t have that issue, or if you really had it together that would never happen to you, etc.
My best way to work with this “better woman” voice is to listen to it and say silently or out loud: I get that you think there everything should have it’s designated place, and I should wear my hair down more…be more fashionable, and get more of “everything” done, not need to take naps, and rock a weekly meal plan, etc. Then, inquire: Is it true that I should do all of these things? What will happen if I don’t do them? What am I scared people will say or think about me?
There is usually some level of fear that I am not doing it right or good enough or there is something wrong. When I see this I can shine some light and then rise up and move from heart and authenticity rather than the “better woman’s” commands and criticisms. I can move from love rather than fear. It takes some work but it is well worth it. 🙂
Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for rain. We’ve really needed it so it I enjoyed the rainy day. I had flashbacks of when we lived in Bali. The rain there was magical. am grateful for my awesome colonic. I am grateful for a super chill day. I am grateful for my body and health. I am grateful for naps and guided meditations. I am grateful for all the women who push through their fears to create a life they love. I am continually inspired by the power of women. I am grateful for the new novel I am reading: Sara by Esther and Jerry Hicks. I am grateful for all the functional doctors who are paving the way and changing the world. #thankyou