Bliss Dairy – July 13, 2015

Loving ourselves through the process of owning our story is the bravest thing we’ll ever do. — Brene Brown

Intention/Affirmation: I picked 3 cards and created my intention for the day: Keep your eyes open. Joy lives in small places.You know what to do, trust your inner wisdom, and take appropriate action without delay. It is “my” mind that creates my experiences. I am unlimited in my own ability to create the good in my life.

8:30 4 muffins w/turmeric coconut buttter (added sweet potatoes instead of carrots for these)
1:30 16 oz green juice + fresh lemonade with chia seeds
2:00 small bowl of watermelon
2:30 big mixed green salad with a new olive oil dressing (needs some work ;)) + chicken
6:00 mixed berries jello like goodness (will share recipe soon) + 2 more muffins (so good!)

10 minute walk
20 minute strength workout
15 minute yin yoga before bed

Meditation: 15 minutes + 20 guided meditation

Laugh Out Loud Moment: My son was really excited about vacuuming. I told him we’d do it when he woke up from his nap. As soon as he woke up, he said: Vacuum. Then, he started picking things up off the floor. I laughed. Ok, let’s do it!  He watched (+ ran in the other room) while I vacuumed. I’m done, I said. No Mommy, there’s some more right there, he said. I laughed pretty hard and said, You’re right. He must be tapping into my declutter challenge intentions. 😉

Body Goodness: I haven’t had a sweet potato in over 3 months. I’m curious how my body will feel tomorrow after eating them in the muffins. I have another month with herbs and limited carb/fruit intake to balance my intestinal flora and heal my gut, but I wanted to experiment to see how it felt. It has been a week since I’ve taken out chocolate, and today was the first day I felt a craving for it when my energy dipped around 3:30 pm. Happy for my commitment. I do think not having it is helping my adrenals.

Mind/Heart/Spirit Goodness: I’ve been writing my bliss diary for a month now. It feels good to be doing it again. Especially since this is what I did when I started my first blog 9 years ago. In that blog I shared my daily process of preparing for a fitness show on all levels mind, body, spirit.

Side note: During that process I gave some guys I ride from Madison to Chicago. They were hitchhiking across America (hitch50). They dared me to eat a tofu dog on stage for my show. If I did it they would pay for me to go to Hawaii for 10 days, as that was their last state to hitchhike to. I’m always up for fun, so I did it. (if you’re curious you can see a clip of my show HERE haha).

Ok, back to the blogging thing. A big part of this blog is loving myself through the process of owning my story. Showing up and being real as Brene Brown says:

Authenticity is a collection of choices that we have to make every day. It’s about the choice to show up and be real. The choice to be honest. The choice to let our true selves be seen.

There is a vulnerability in letting our true selves be seen. I’ve been on this authentic path for the last 17 years, and I love it. I also know that it’s not for everyone…the whole meditation/mindfulness thang, or the organic whole foods diet, or intentional mothering, or talking about our heart essence, transformation and letting our light shine, or even the idea that women are Goddesses.

I didn’t grow up with this way of living. My mom is awesome and very tuned in but I’ve taken it to a whole other level by making it my life’s purpose. In college I used to hide my Dan Millman, Tony Robbins and Marianne Williamson books. I felt embarrassed. I thought if I liked (and needed) those books something was wrong with me.

Then, I met my first spiritual teacher, Barbara! She was my light. I did spiritual counseling with her all through college. I used to do reiki treatments before my college volleyball games. It felt like two different lives. As the years have passed I’ve slowly peeled the layers off and opened up to who I am and what I truly love and celebrate it rather than feeling shame about it.

And, yet…there are still those fears that come up once in awhile. What will people think? One of my mentors from the past, Terry Cole Whittaker wrote a book called: What you think of me is none of my business. So true and… it still sucks to be made fun of or criticized. No one enjoys that feeling so we subtly (or not so subtly) hide.

I can still remember those times when I was criticized…it felt like I had been punched in the gut. In college I was in a fitness magazine and a big thing erupted on the college forums with all sorts of nasty things about me along with a whole bunch of positive things. But, the negativity stuck and hurt (big time).  I wanted to hide. I was even upset that I was in the magazine. I didn’t want to shine my light.

How do we stay true to who we are and not diminish ourselves to be liked or to fit in?

I love blogging and sharing because it connects me to myself and I also know that the people who dig these types of “conversations” will resonate with what I share. There are (and have been) haters that won’t like what I am doing. I have to be ok with that and keep doing my thing! As Brene Brown quotes in her book, Daring Greatly:

Don’t try to win over the haters; you are not a jackass whisperer. – Scott Stratten 🙂

Serve the lovers. Let the haters go. Loving ourselves through the process of owning our story is the bravest thing we’ll ever do. Yes, let’s do this!

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for my great day with E. We had a beautiful flow and I experienced a lot of joy, connection and amazement. I am grateful that I’m at home to see his little and big development leaps. I am grateful for our cuddling and reading time this afternoon (so sweet).  I am grateful for another great evening chat with the hubster. I am grateful for Brene Brown’s wisdom. She is such an inspiration. I am grateful all of my mentors throughout the years. I am blessed for the abundance of goodness in my life. #thankyou


4 thoughts on “Bliss Dairy – July 13, 2015

  1. Thank you so much Alexandra for showing up and being vulnerable. I first heard about Brene Brown through Oasis. I have listened to her audios more than read her books. Life changing to say the least. As I prepare to put myself in a vulnerable situation i will be opening up her books on my book shelf.

    This idea of beauty really fascinates me. I personally grew up with sisters, and a neighborhood full of girls,,and a mom who has been very weight conscious.(anorexic at one time), and almost 20 years in the beauty industry myself. My 7 year old son has severe eating challenges. All of this has turned my life upside down. I have worked with so many therapist trying to fix my son( and my self), wow what a roller coaster, so the past 7 years has been food therapy 101. I have for the last 17 years or so associated food with beauty, and will always believe in the power of nutrition, but just now I’m seeing that wow, whenever we are REALY living our lives in a way that brings us joy, that really lights us up, it seems you can eat anything and it’s ok. Beauty is really that glow, that smile from gratefullness, playfulness, and serving our families, ourselves or passions. You embody all of these qualities, and are truly an example of balanced beautiful living. You have really taught me about authenticity! Men and woman are such different creatures. I never really knew the power of this until I had my son. Our nutritional needs seem to be so different bc of childbirth. Have you felt this also? I know this is your life’s work, and I so appreciate it:))

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    1. Hi Kim! Thank you for sharing your story and I feel you. I appreciate your willingness to share a piece of your story. I’m always amazed at what we pick up from our family and society around beauty. I believe it’s such an important issue for us to integrate, heal and make peace with so that we pass on truth, love and beauty to our children. It’s been a deliberate practice for me for years.

      I send you and your son love with the eating challenges. I don’t know what that’s like but I can see how it would turn your life upside down. We would do anything for our children. I honor your courage to do the work and find the right path for both of you. Food is an interesting thing for so many. Especially when we tie our weight and beauty to our worth. I do think men and women have a different relationship to food (I am going to be sharing an interview this week with Sue Ann Gleason that I think you’ll really like. 🙂

      I love this…Beauty is really that glow. YES! I believe that nutrition is a huge aspect but the joy is equally important. 🙂 And, yes I feel my nutritional needs have changed with childbirth. As you probably know I was really into veganism and then switched 2 weeks before E was born and have incorporated more animal products into my diet. It feels good now but might change as I continue to evolve.

      I appreciate your generously kind words. I do my best to live a balanced and beautiful life and be as real as I can be. I feel blessed to do what I do. Big love to you and your family!

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