Bliss Diary – July 7, 2015

You realize that all along there was something tremendous within you, and you did not know it. — Paramahansa Yogananda

Intention/Affirmation: Surrender, Release & Rest

7:00  2 cups of longevity tea, with few TB coconut cream + collagen
10:30 16+ oz green smoothie + fresh salmon + handful of plantain chips
1:00 30 oz raspberry, nettle, lemon tea (chilled)
2:30 1 small avocado + 10 olives
4:00 pre-dinner snack – small bowl of blueberries + 25 oz green juice
5:30 bowl of cauliflower rice, guacamole, olives, nori + ground turkey

I am going to experiment with actually eating earlier in the day. For the last 10 years I’ve never been a big breakfast eater. I used to do green juice and/or smoothie every morning. Then, I would have a “meal” lunch and dinner. But, I also wasn’t waking up at 5:30 am like I am now. My body and life have changed since being pregnant, giving birth and mothering a toddler. 🙂

I want to see how I feel throughout the day if I eat something earlier. Will my blood sugar be more balanced? Have more energy? Better hormone optimization? I’m curious. The habit of eating a liquid breakfast is so engrained that creating a new habit of eating a meal seems a bit foreign. It’s an experiment, I can always go back to what I used to do.

* 20 minute walk (toddler pace)
* 20 minute rebounding

Meditation: 15 minutes + 30 minute napitation

Body Goodness: Still working on healing the sty. I am actually feeling worse today (with a pretty intense headache in the afternoon/evening). It does feel like detox with the flu-like symptoms which isn’t surprising. I’m in my 4th week of taking the cleansing herbs. I have 2-4 more weeks of these herbs and then I will take a stool test to see where I’m at and then do a repairing protocol for a few weeks.

Mind/Heart Goodness: I think one of the challenges of motherhood is the rollercoaster of emotions for both the mother and child. For example, this morning my son was whining. It seemed more than usual (but, I was also doing a bit of internal whining myself so it’s hard to say who was doing it more ;)). The irritation was present as he increased his demands using that voice. This went on for a few minutes. It was one of those moments that you love your child and you just want to be left alone.

Realizing this, I took a breathe. Centered. Gave myself a pep talk. It went something like this:  “I’ve got this. This isn’t a big deal. Embrace reality. What is actually happening right now? He is expressing himself and I experience that expression as whining. He also seems to be a bit uncomfortable.”

After this inner dialogue it was easier to step outside the annoyance and find acceptance. Then, a space of compassion arose as the upset began to dissolve.  I realized he was actually expressing what I was feeling. Toddlers are so great at this. Isn’t it ironic that I was whining about his whining in my head? 😉

So, I knelt down on the floor and got eye to eye with him and slowly said: “It sounds like you’re uncomfortable. Can I help you with something? What are you needing?” We had a face to face chat and our morning went much smoother. Btw, I asked myself these same questions. I am growing as much as he is.

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for Brian’s support and love today. I am grateful for rest and relaxation. I am grateful for all the work my sweet body is doing. I am grateful for all the teachers that continually inspire me. I am grateful for my commitment even when I don’t feel like it. I am grateful for a clean kitchen (thanks to the hubby). I am grateful that most days I don’t feel this bad. 🙂


2 thoughts on “Bliss Diary – July 7, 2015

  1. I love how you describe the connection between mother and child in those moments. I can relate even now with my 13.5 year old. We’re away together just the two of us for a few weeks and each day we seem to have one or two really icky moments. I can feel it when the resistance is building within me. And I remind myself he’s a teenage boy – I cannot expect him to act like an adult nor can I expect him to be his same self when we’re completely out of his comfort zone. I’m getting clearer about boundaries, need for some personal space and also trying to be aware of his needs and honor them as well. Learning every day, sometimes with repeat lessons 🙂

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  2. LOVE LOVE this! I especially love it because you are further down the motherhood road. I appreciate you sharing your experience. I always love to hear other mothers stories. I so know the resistance building thang AND the boundaries AND personal space AND honoring needs. haha Yep, I can totally relate. One big dance of learning and growing, expanding and sometimes contracting/resisting and opening back up and starting again. 🙂 Love You!!


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