When you are a mother, you are never really alone in your thoughts. A mother always has to think twice, once for herself and once for her child. — Sophia Loren
My son woke me up at 5:30. I wished for more sleep and had a vision of reading and relaxing in bed on a Saturday morning. I smiled at how my days used to be before becoming a mother. Then, I got out of bed brushed my teeth and got breakfast ready.
I was reading my blog from back in 2009. If felt familiar and yet different. How do you describe what happens when you become a mother? I am the same at my core. Yet, a completely transformed woman. I have given birth to my son and also to a new version of myself.
I was tired this morning. My son was tired. I could feel the slight irritation and fatigue building. I asked him if he wanted to go to the track. With a big grin he said: “YES!” Then, asked if we could listen to Beckwith in the car. I said: “Yes.” Then, our dog barked to let us know he wanted to go too. I laughed. “Ok, looks like we’re going to the track.”
I still wanted to crawl back in bed but I knew this adventure would probably kick out any potential grumpy mood that might be lurking. We jumped in the car and turned up Beckwith’s TranscenDance and rocked out. How can you be in a bad mood when you listen to that? I highly recommend you get this album if you don’t have it. 🙂 It felt good to be out in the warm sun, running, sprinting, laughing and watching E + Zeus run around and having a blast.
I had a quick chat with a woman who was pregnant, just starting 39 weeks. She was walking with her husband. I love pregnant woman. Maybe it was because I loved being pregnant or maybe because they are carrying life inside of them. Or maybe because they are on the precipice of transformation that they don’t even know is coming.
You can’t know. I wanted to sit down with her and talk about her life, her heart and her dreams. I wanted to talk to her about motherhood. I wanted to support and guide her. I wanted her to know that when she is exhausted at 3 am that it’s all going to be alright. I wanted to remind her of her strength. That it does get easier. But, all I said as they beamed with anticipation and joy was, “Congrats!” with a big smile.
I walked back to the car feeling happy that we made the trip and feeling more connected to myself and to life. Nature and movement have a way of doing that. That choice made a difference in the quality of my day. It’s always the little things that we can choose to do or not do. We always have the choice.
Intention/Affirmation: Light and joy and peace abide in me (ACIM Lesson #93).
cauliflower rice w/ground beef (leftovers from last night) + olives w/some maca cacao bar
chai smoothie + kombucha
16 oz green juice
homemade kale chips + nori sheets with avocado + cucumber slices + carrots + olives – this is called the “i don’t want to cook dinner” 😉
* 30 minute track workout with sprints, stairs, lunges, squats, jogging and jumping jacks. It was a bit of everything along with chasing a dog and a toddler. 🙂
* 60 minute walk (+ run) around time while E rode his balance bike
Meditation: 20 minutes + 30 minute napitation
Mind/Body/Spirit: I’m feeling inspired by the Divine Feminine right now. I love to explore both the masculine and the feminine. I go through phases where I dive deeper into one area. I love we get to choose where to play. My intention is be me fully knowing that my expression is going to be an integration of masculine and feminine. That is one of the many reason why I created Rock Your Goddess Life, to help women live from their essence and create an authentically awesome life.
I love the word Goddess. I love what it stirs in me. I love the call to action (+ being-ness) I feel when I view myself as a Goddess. I believe that every woman is a Goddess. When we affirm this we tap into a power within, we embody our true essence. We shine. We are radiance. This is what I want for my mind, body and spirit. This is what I am feeling today.
Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for the track. I ran track in high school and there is something that feels powerful and nourishing when I go to one. I am grateful for my legs that allow me to sprint. I am grateful for the sun. I am grateful for the beauty of nature that surrounds us. I am grateful for Mamas who share their joys and their challenges. I am grateful for Amazon. I am grateful that my husband surprised me with some green juice and kombucha. I am grateful for all the people who directly and indirectly make my life easier.
P.S. Remember, You Matter!! 🙂