Bliss Diary – June 29, 2015

The only journey is the one within. — Rainer Maria Rilke
Nutrition:
nori sheets w/salmon, avocado + chopped olives
bowl of strawberries + some dark chocolate
kombucha
green goddess salad (the usual)

Movement: rebounding for 30 minutes

Meditation: 15 minutes + 30 minute napitation

The 30 second spa treatment:Β  I have a little “spa spot” with everyday coconut toner, lavender + chammomile + sandalwood + peppermint essential oils, and an essential oil thieves spray and some incense and palo santo sticks. When I’m feeling like I need a little dose of love I go and spritz my face a few times with toner, add an essential oil to my wrists, neck and feet and then light some incense or palo santo. Then, close my eyes and take a few deep breaths and say: it’s all good. It’s a simple practice that leaves me feeling refreshed and renewed. πŸ™‚

Body Goodness: My body is feeling sore from my track workout on Sunday. When I train hard it seems to kick up some stuff to be cleared. Surprisingly, I haven’t noticed any big detox symptoms since starting the cleansing herbs and supplements. I keep holding the vision of having better and better energy consistently throughout the day. Adrenals, thyroid, gut healed. #YES I think I will create a guided blissitation/meditation for this. πŸ™‚

Mind/Heart Goodness: This morning I answered a bunch of comments on my video about why I’m not vegan anymore. It was good to see others points of view. I get it. I was pretty dogmatic and thought veganism was The Way for optimal health. I learned more about animal rights and it became something I felt pretty passionate about it. So, it was a big shift to choose to eat animal products again, after 9 years of being fully immersed in that way of eating and living.

Nature has been my guide. Realizing we are animals. Animals eat animals. Something must die in order for something to live, even the plants. If I believed that eating vegan was the best for my family’s health I would do it. But, I don’t. I now believe that there are certain nutrients that are not in plants. I didn’t used to think that.

It’s still a process of integration for me. I’ve become way more open to all the different ways of eating and living. We all have our own unique path and I trust that I am on the right path for right now knowing that it will continue to evolve and change as I do.

Appreciation & Gratitude: I am grateful for my aunt and uncle. E and I went to visit them today and grateful for the sweet time we in their pool. They have been so gracious with their home throughout the years. I am grateful for all the people who have believed in me. I’ve had (and continue to have) an incredible support system. I am grateful for my hubby’s support with my creativity. I am grateful for all the wisdom I’ve implemented in regards to pregnancy, birth and motherhood. I’m a really good Momma Goddess. I’m proud of myself. πŸ™‚

Bliss Diary – June 28, 2015

There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost.

The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable nor how it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open.

You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep yourself open and aware to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open. … No artist is pleased. [There is] no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a queer divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others.

Martha Graham

Nutrition:
morning delight
16 oz green juice – lemon/ginger/stevia drink
green goddess salad (head of romaine, 1 avocado, 1 can of wild salmon, 2 TB primal mayo, dulse, coconut aminos, lemon juice as mashed together in coconut wraps
raw pacari chocolate
bowl of cauliflower rice with some olives + coconut chips w/bacon fat, cinnamon, and sea salt

Movement:
* 15 minute toddler stroll at 7 am to say hello to the sun
* 90 minute yoga class. #bliss
* 20 minute walk pushing stroller
* 15 min foam roller + pigeon yoga pose

I was in yoga class doing some cat and dog poses then holding plank. Betsy advised us to slowly move back into child’s pose and rest. I took a breath…and exhaled. Releasing.

Then, I felt the tingling as tears were forming behind my closed eyes. I took another breath and silently said: “soften”. The tears welled up and two slowly slipped from my eyes.

I wasn’t trying to stop the feeling (or tears). It was just there and I welcomed it. I felt my heart open. I told myself it’s ok to feel. It’s ok to have tears.

It brought me back to breakfast this morning. My son noticed a cut on my right hand and asked if it hurt and if I cried. I said, “no.” He asked: “does Mommy cry?” I said, “sometimes I cry when I’m hurt. And, sometimes I cry when something touches my heart. I cried with joy when you were born.” He then told me about the time he cried after a bee stung his finger.

I took another centering breath. Feeling my forehead rest on the yoga mat. Letting the feeling and emotion flow through me. Not knowing what triggered the tears. I just let it be. I didn’t try to find a reason. I just stayed connected…breathing….being with the unfolding moments. Then… it passed. I slowly moved into downward dog feeling a renewed sense of aliveness. It felt good and affirming as if some barriers were breaking down.

Meditation: 15 minutes + 5 minutes

Appreciation & Gratitude: I am grateful for the nourishing chat I had with my husband. I am so grateful we are going to do Alison Armstrong’s audio workshop together. Hubster know how to make me happy. πŸ™‚ I am grateful for yoga. I am grateful that my boys were waiting for me after yoga class with a green juice + a kombucha. I felt like a blessed Goddess. I am grateful for sleep. I am grateful for my commitment to being my best self. I am grateful for all the sweet love and kindness I am receiving about my daily diary.

Something awesome about today: My son is having a blast with his balance bike. He wears a helmet and he loves it. He loves it so much that he actually tried to go to sleep with the helmet on last night. We decided to put it by the bed until morning. When he awoke he put it back on. It’s 5 pm and he’s pretty much worn it all day. Eating, walking, nursing, swinging, at the farmer’s market and in the stroller. It’s hilarious and *awesome*! He is all in!! Just being him fully.

It inspired me today when I wanted to wear a red tank top underneath a pink tank top. My first thought was: that doesn’t match. Then, I thought: if my son can wear his bike helmet everywhere I can wear pink and red. So I did. πŸ™‚ Made me smile. I am amazed how much I grow and learn from him daily.

Oh, and we saw this amazing bird on our way home today. Anyone know what it is? FullSizeRender

Sending love,

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Bliss Diary – June 27, 2015

When you are a mother, you are never really alone in your thoughts. A mother always has to think twice, once for herself and once for her child. — Sophia Loren

My son woke me up at 5:30. I wished for more sleep and had a vision of reading and relaxing in bed on a Saturday morning. I smiled at how my days used to be before becoming a mother. Then, I got out of bed brushed my teeth and got breakfast ready.

I was reading my blog from back in 2009. If felt familiar and yet different. How do you describe what happens when you become a mother? I am the same at my core. Yet, a completely transformed woman. I have given birth to my son and also to a new version of myself.

I was tired this morning. My son was tired. I could feel the slight irritation and fatigue building. I asked him if he wanted to go to the track. With a big grin he said: “YES!” Then, asked if we could listen to Beckwith in the car. I said: “Yes.” Then, our dog barked to let us know he wanted to go too. I laughed. “Ok, looks like we’re going to the track.”

I still wanted to crawl back in bed but I knew this adventure would probably kick out any potential grumpy mood that might be lurking. We jumped in the car and turned up Beckwith’s TranscenDance and rocked out. How can you be in a bad mood when you listen to that? I highly recommend you get this album if you don’t have it. πŸ™‚ It felt good to be out in the warm sun, running, sprinting, laughing and watching E + Zeus run around and having a blast.

I had a quick chat with a woman who was pregnant, just starting 39 weeks. She was walking with her husband. I love pregnant woman. Maybe it was because I loved being pregnant or maybe because they are carrying life inside of them. Or maybe because they are on the precipice of transformation that they don’t even know is coming.

You can’t know. I wanted to sit down with her and talk about her life, her heart and her dreams. I wanted to talk to her about motherhood. I wanted to support and guide her. I wanted her to know that when she is exhausted at 3 am that it’s all going to be alright. I wanted to remind her of her strength. That it does get easier. But, all I said as they beamed with anticipation and joy was, “Congrats!” with a big smile.

I walked back to the car feeling happy that we made the trip and feeling more connected to myself and to life. Nature and movement have a way of doing that. That choice made a difference in the quality of my day. It’s always the little things that we can choose to do or not do. We always have the choice.

Intention/Affirmation: Light and joy and peace abide in me (ACIM Lesson #93).

Nutrition:
morning delight
cauliflower rice w/ground beef (leftovers from last night) + olives w/some maca cacao bar
chai smoothie + kombucha
16 oz green juice
homemade kale chips + nori sheets with avocado + cucumber slices + carrots + olives – this is called the “i don’t want to cook dinner” πŸ˜‰

Kale chips ready to go into the dehydrator, my little guy “cutting” the greens then sweeping the little pieces up and then the final kale goodness. πŸ™‚
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Movement:
* 30 minute track workout with sprints, stairs, lunges, squats, jogging and jumping jacks. It was a bit of everything along with chasing a dog and a toddler. πŸ™‚
* 60 minute walk (+ run) around time while E rode his balance bike

Meditation: 20 minutes + 30 minute napitation

Mind/Body/Spirit: I’m feeling inspired by the Divine Feminine right now. I love to explore both the masculine and the feminine. I go through phases where I dive deeper into one area. I love we get to choose where to play. My intention is be me fully knowing that my expression is going to be an integration of masculine and feminine. That is one of the many reason why I created Rock Your Goddess Life, to help women live from their essence and create an authentically awesome life.

I love the word Goddess. I love what it stirs in me. I love the call to action (+ being-ness) I feel when I view myself as a Goddess. I believe that every woman is a Goddess. When we affirm this we tap into a power within, we embody our true essence. We shine. We are radiance. This is what I want for my mind, body and spirit. This is what I am feeling today.

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for the track. I ran track in high school and there is something that feels powerful and nourishing when I go to one. I am grateful for my legs that allow me to sprint. I am grateful for the sun. I am grateful for the beauty of nature that surrounds us. I am grateful for Mamas who share their joys and their challenges. I am grateful for Amazon. I am grateful that my husband surprised me with some green juice and kombucha. I am grateful for all the people who directly and indirectly make my life easier.

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P.S. Remember, You Matter!! πŸ™‚

Bliss Diary – June 26, 2015

I am guided throughout this day in making the right choices. Divine intelligence continuously guides me in the realization of my goals. I am safe. — Louise Hay

Affirmation/Intention: Trust in the good. Live as if I am guided. Look for the magic everywhere. πŸ™‚

Nutrition:
morning delight
16 oz green juice
2 minute wraps — salmon + mayo mix it all together and add to a nori sheet and roll it up and eat. I had 5 + also 2 big carrots
ginger kombucha + tried a new chocolate: raw pacari chocolate w/ coconut crystals
cabbage rolls with cauliflower rice and ground beef + olives + fresh coconut water and meat (I tried to do something fancier for our friday night dinner. hehe)

Movement:
45 minute toddler cruise – I did some chi gong and stretching while he explored + also did a 5 minute 30 lb toddler carry, πŸ˜‰
5 minute rebounding
20 minute errand walk pushing stroller
15 toddler paced walk

Meditation: 15 minutes + 30 napitation

If I could only eat 5 foods for a a month I would eat… greens (all kinds), coconut (products), salmon, cacao, and avocados with a splash of lemon, stevia and sea salt. πŸ™‚

Magical + Miraculous Moments: My son opening the blinds and then softly waking me up at 5:10 am. Heart smiles. ❀ Doing chi gong outside in the morning sun while my son was playing with the weeds and sticks at the park. ❀ My son asking to listen to Beckwith’s TranscenDance. YES! It’s one of my favorite albums! ❀ Seeing the hubby light up with excitement about getting his new recording studio set up in his office. ❀ Napping…one my favorite delights. ❀

Today I am reading…Red Moon Understanding and using the creative, sexual and spiritual gifts of the menstrual cycle by Miranda Gray.

Appreciation of the Good, Great & Beautiful: I am grateful for Dave Asprey for introducing me to potential mold issues. I am grateful for the people who are testing samples from under our kitchen sink for mold. I am grateful for the ability to walk all around our town so easily. I am grateful for air conditioning. I am grateful for my Mama. I am grateful for FaceTime. It’s amazing that we can video chat with the people we love. I am grateful for bedtime stories.

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Bliss Diary – June 25, 2015

You’ve got to make a conscious choice every day to shed the old – whatever “the old” means for you. Β  Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β  Sarah Ban Breathnach

Nutrition:
morning delight
3 muffins + coconut chips from yesterday (during my son’s nap time I could make lunch or grab a snack and take a nap, I chose the latter.)
ginger kombucha
handful of plantain chips + big salad (the usual) with salmon/mayo wrapped in coconut wraps

I eat a lot of fat. I used to be moderate to low fat when I was a vegan. But, for the last 3 years I’ve been playing with seeing how much I can actually eat. It’s been an interesting and tasty experiment. I think mostly because I’ve thought for years you should limit your fat intake if you wanted to be healthy and lean. But, food tastes better with fat. Plus, it stabilizes my blood sugar so I don’t feel hungry all the time and have way less cravings.

I haven’t gained a bunch of weight by eating large amounts of fat but I also haven’t gotten any leaner. I do notice the less carbohydrates I have the better my tests are in regards to blood sugar, hemoglobin A1c, triglycerides, etc. I’m kinda nerdy about this stuff. I like to test and see what’s actually happening in my body.

My whole perspective on nutrition has changed drastically in the last 3 years. I am more open, less dogmatic and curious about what is ideal for my body and listening to it. I’ve learned that grains don’t work well for me. I also know that a lower carbohydrate diet (not ketonic) feels good (now). I rarely eat fruit, and don’t really miss it. I also know that low sugar is an important part of healing my gut. So…that’s what I am focusing in regards to my nutrition.

Body Goodness:Β I’ve been taking cleansing herbs for the last 10 days. The two major ones I am taking are:Β  RepairVite + GI-Synergy by Apex Energetics + Supplements from the Clean Gut kit which is digestive enzymes, probiotics, b-complex and a form of berberine. I am also taking fish oil, and algae dha + epa, magnesium, and vitamin c.

It feels good and comprehensive. I will do another stool test in a month or so to see where I’m at. Everything feels good and I also think a little bit more sleep might give me a bit more healing power. My total hours slept last week were 57.5 which which averages out to a little over 8 hours a night. I am wondering how I’d feel if I got 8.5 a night? πŸ™‚

Movement:
* 19 minute tabata strength workout (6 rounds of 6 sets) – lunges, kettelbell swings, kettlebell deadlifts to row, bicyle abs, 16 lb medicine ball squats w/shoulder press, plank
* 5 minute walk

Meditation: 15 minutes + 45 minute napitation (guided meditation + nap)

Mind/Heart Goodness:
I’ve been thinking about breastfeeding this week. My son will be 3 in 3 months. He still nurses 2-3 times a day. I feel incredibly proud and grateful that I’ve been able to give this gift to him. We had a challenges with latching for 3 months but I was committed. I eventually found out that he had a posterior tongue tie (after lots of experts + research + mama’s intuition) and we had a midwife help us with that and we never had an issue again. Amazing!! There was no way I was not going to breastfeed my baby. We found a way even through my pain and tears.

I’ve always loved the sweet connection. Nursing is actually one of my greatest joys. There is something so powerful and beautiful about feeding and nourishing your child from your body and gazing into his eyes. Mama Goddess embodied. It has also been a big commitment. I’ve never pumped so I was on call a lot. It nourished me though. The oxytocin release has been awesome for our bond.

Obviously, every child weans. It’s part of these little people growing up. Yet, there is still a little sadness. When will the last time we nurse be? There’s the joy of expansion and also the tears and the lump in my throat about the completion of that phase in our relationship. I’m not sure when it will end. But, I know that it is near. Especially working with thyroid and adrenal issues. Mama needs some recovery before she jumps back into baby land again. πŸ˜‰

Appreciation & Gratitude: I am grateful for my mama friends and their sweet babies. We had a great play date today. I am grateful for epic nourishing naps.  I am grateful for all of my books. I ❀ books. I am grateful for all the my body does every day. I am grateful for my adrenals and thyroid. I am grateful for my breathe. I am grateful for the journey.

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Bliss Diary – June 24, 2015

“You are worthy of your desires.” — Danielle LaPorte

Question I’m asking: If I had it all my way I’d (fill in the blank). I’ve been playing with this today and it’s been really interesting to notice how little shifts can make a big difference. This morning as I was making breakfast I asked if I had it all my way what would I do? I heard listen to music and dance. So, I put a Michael Buble station on Pandora and got my groove on.

I love asking this question because it helps me gain clarity. I am pretty easy going and flexible but the simple act of asking this throughout the day inspired me to tune into what I *really* wanted. I get to be outrageous in my desires because I am playing a game. When I am willing to use my imagination it’s easier to come back home to what is really calling to my heart. This practice helped me have an even more delightful day today. Gonna keep playing with this one. πŸ™‚

Nutrition:
morning delight smoothie
(see recipe)
6 big shrimp + 3 chocolate muffins
ginger tea + lemon + stevia 25 oz
big romaine salad with salmon, mayo, avocado, dulse, nori, chlorella powder, lecithin, hemp seeds all mashed together. #fav + coconut chips (I make them with bacon fat, salt + cinnamon)

Movement:
* 40 minute toddler paced stroll
* 5 minute stretching + 5 minute walk
* 10 minute walk
* 5 min yin yoga

Meditation: 15 minutes

Intention/Affirmation: This was my son’s way of picking a card for me today. IMG_3275
So, I am going to go with passion, progress, nature, my future is glorious, serving others, tenderness, progress, + creativity. πŸ™‚Β 

Body Goodness: I started my moon today. I like to call it that. It feels kinda hippy but I’m down with that. πŸ˜‰Β I noticed an immediate shift in my energy. So much more optimistic, energetic and vibrant.
I had an acupuncture treatment today. It felt wonderful to just rest and breathe and increase my chi. I also got an in depth thyroid blood test at my new functional doctor’s office. I am *very* excited about this. I already know I am working with moderate hypothyroidism and these results will give me an even better idea on the best path to optimize.

Mind/Heart Goodness: I prayed during my acupuncture treatment today. I felt called to send love and healing to the world. I know I write about my life and the gratitude and love but this doesn’t mean I’m not aware of the suffering in the world. I know there is pain. My heart is sensitive to others. I see and feel them. I can see it in people’s eyes as I interact with them or walk past them.

I believe the way I impact the world is by bringing the love + light and be who I am here to be. To quote Gandhi, “be the change that you wish to see in the world.” If we all did this we could change the world greatly. We all have our part to play in this big divine playground and it’s vital that we do it for ourselves and for others.

Moments of Toddler Delight: My son asking for some strawberries over and over. I jokingly said: Come on where’s the patience? He said: I found it. Catch Mommy as he pretended to throw it. I laughed then caught the “patience” and threw it back. We threw it back and forth a few more times. Smile. So awesome! ❀ Watching him crack eggs for the first time so carefully. ❀ Walking hand and hand with him and looking down at his sweet soft sole shoes with yellow tractors on them. I had one of those full body smiles watching his little feet walking. These are the moments that I hope to etch into the very fiber of my being. So much love and joy overflowing. ❀

Gratitude & Appreciation: I am grateful for acupuncture. I am grateful for all the supplements and herbs I’m taking. I am grateful for the ease of my day. I am grateful for my mind, body and spirit. I am grateful for the morning sun. I am grateful for our lovely city. I am grateful for my computer. I am grateful for the money to buy incredibly healthy food. I am grateful for my husband and son. They give my life so much meaning and connection.

I am feeling…empowered, blessed and happy!

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Morning Delight Smoothie (hot or cold)

IMG_3296I enjoy this warm in the morning. But, you could also make it more of a milkshake with ice + cold tea. It makes it even yummier if you get outside and say hello to the sun.

Ingredients:

  • 1 c. of tea (I usually use longevity tea or chai rooibos)
  • 1/2 c. coconut milk
  • 1-2 TB cacao powder
  • 1/2 tsp vanilla powder
  • 1 TB of coconut oil or mct oil
  • 2 scoops of collagen
  • dash of cinnamon
  • stevia (sweetener) to taste – I use about 10 drops

This is my go to recipe and then I play with these variations depending on the day: 1 TB of ghee, few drops of peppermint oil or medicine flower extracts likeΒ  chocolate/vanilla/coffee/cinnamon and grated cacao butter.

Instructions:

  1. Steep the tea
  2. Add ingredients to blender
  3. Blend
  4. Enjoy + Have a delightful day! πŸ™‚

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